"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Last day of Peds....boohoo

face, crying

So tomorrow is my last day of Peds clinical......While I am VERY happy to have a little break from clinical to breathe & get caught up (and not have to get up at 4 am), I have to admit I am TOTALLY going to miss this clinical.  I wish I could just skip all the rest of these classes & get to working in pediatrics already!!  I am so happy to have found my niche.  I have to be honest.  Up until this point I was kind of wondering if I had made the right career decision. 
Of course I never wanted to be a floor nurse anyway, but even so I was really worried that I had made a bit of a mistake by choosing nursing.  Up until this clinical nothing has really sparked my interest & I had just been waiting for this clinical from the very beginning of nursing school.  I kind of knew that I would like it, but I never thought that I would fall head over heels in love with Peds.  And the cherry on top is that there is a fabulous Pediatric hospital in my favorite city around, Chattanooga!
Seriously, who wouldn't want to live here?
I would love to move to Chattanooga once I get my nursing license and work there, but unfortunately it's a little far away and they're an hour ahead of us.  That means instead of having to leave at 4 am to get there in time for the start of my shift I'd have to leave at 3.  Um, no thank you.  BUT we'll see.  It will all work out how it's supposed to and God knows my heart and He hasn't led me wrong up until this point. 
So I guess I'd better get to bed.  4 am comes REALLY early, especially when you're still up at 10 pm.  Don't know what I'm thinking. 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

First CC test, maybe I should go to class...

Or at least listen to all of the podcasts...or maybe just study?  Either way I bombed my first CC test.  I got a 73, which I guess is better than a 53 but it's still failing in our program.  But fortunately it's nothing that I can't come back from, so I'm not too terribly bummed about it. 

Had my 2nd peds clinical, LOVED it! I mean seriously, I just can't explain how much I love pediatrics.  After I get out of nursing school I don't ever, ever, EVER want to take care of an adult again.  I seriously don't.  And while I would love to get my PNP, the only program around here is at Vanderbilt, which although Vandy is an AWESOME school and very prestigous, it also comes with an AWESOME & prestigous price tag as well.  I wish there was an online course that was doable but I haven't really found any.  I found one in Alabama at USA but it's double the time of the one at Vanderbilt and you have to have 2 years of floor experience first.  BUT the good news is that I have questioned many of the NP's I "know" & they have all said that it's possible for me to narrow my scope of practice as a FNP.  So, that's great news!  I've always leaned towards FNP just because it's a broader scope, but now that I want to narrow that scope I was a little worried, but it looks like that's going to be ok.  So I guess I won't have to go to Vandy after all, we'll see.  I think I'm going to stick with applying to the school I currently attend & the one other school that I have had my eye on from the beginning & just go from there.  Also, the good thing about both of those is that with my GPA I don't have to take the GRE, yay!!

Anyway, I have more to talk about, but I need to get a "reflection" done for class & look up some articles to go with it, so I will pop back on here later.

Hope everyone is having a great week!  I'm looking forward to the weekend!!

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

First day of Peds, terrible and wonderful all at the same time...

So yesterday was my first day of Peds, the clinical I have been waiting for since I started nursing school was finally here.  To say I was nervous was an understatement.  I was TERRIFIED, and honestly I have no idea why.  Maybe because it was the tiny human population?  Maybe because it was VANDERBILT, maybe because I didn't get enough sleep the day/night before.  Maybe because my best friend was no longer with me in class?  Honestly, I don't know why I was so skittish but seriously I felt like I could cry at least 3 times that day.  Ok, here's a recap of how it went & why it was so terrible & wonderful at the same time.

Worked 7p-7a Saturday night.  Slept on Sunday until about 1:30 then got up because I knew I had an 36 strip EKG assignment due on Tuesday & I knew I wouldn't be able to do it Monday since I had Peds clinical. 

Worked on my strips for as long as I could but then I was just totally exhausted by 6 pm. 
Finally decided I couldn't do it anymore & went to bed at 7:45. 
Woke up about 11:30 & looked for my shot records, JUST IN CASE I needed them for some reason the next day.  Went back to bed.
Woke up some time in the night & couldn't really get back to sleep, so slept fitfully until 4 am. 

Got up at 4 am, got ready & left my house at 4:30 am.  Went by the McDonald's drive thru in my town to grab some breakfast and COFFEE, sign on drive thru said "Closed until further notice". 
Went to the McDonald's in the next town over & got a Caramel Frappe & a sausage mcgriddle.  Didn't realize a frappe was a frozen drink & got a stupid sausage mcmuffin instead of the mcgriddle that I ordered.
Got to Vanderbilt & drove to the stadium where we were supposed to park & catch the shuttle to take us to the hospital, could NOT find where to park, panicked & drove back to the hospital & parked in visitor parking. 
SNUCK into the building so I wouldn't get seen by the parking police & get a ticket.  Was so worried about that that I totally left all of my clinical paperwork in the car!
Realized that I had NO clicincal paperwork & panic mode set in BIG TIME. 

Met my PRECIOUS, 2 mo old patient and proceeded to completely fall in love with him.  Then met his mother who was, let's just say, a little less than thrilled with anything we were doing. 

Was asked by the grandmother if I was a tech.  THEN was asked by the grandmother if I had grandchildren of my own!!! **Note to self - You really need to start wearing some make-up to clinical.**

Proceeded to spend the day caring for the precious baby & getting to know the mom (who eventually woke up & was much more pleasant).


Copied one of my classmates paperwork since I was an idiot & forgot mine. 

Finished my paperwork & was pleased to see the instructor wrote "Good job, well written" on my paperwork. 

Left the hospital went straight to The Cheesecake Factory & ordered THREE extremely expensive pieces of cheesecake.  Which btw Red Velvet Cheesecake is FABULOUS!!!!!!!!! 

Got home & worked on the rest of my EKG strips, went to bed around midnight & totally skipped CC class today.  Whew!

So that was it.  My first day of Peds.  Thank God we didn't have to give meds that day.  She wanted us to just get used to the site & caring for tiny humans.  I have to be honest, I totally thought I would love Peds & I was right, I LOVED it!! I loved the unit, the nurses, the doctors & residents that were there, the precious patients, I loved everything about it.  I can't WAIT to go back next week & now that I know what to expect I will feel MUCH more comfortable.  I have to admit though, I didn't think I would like caring for babies but boy I was SO wrong.  I loved it!!!  He was so precious!

Sooo, this makes me think, should I go for my PNP or my FNP??? I KNOW for a fact that I do NOT like taking care of grown ups.  I've seen that time & time again when I work on my Med/Surg floor, BUT I'm worried that getting my PNP will restrict me from job opportunties.  On the flip side though, I'm sure I would lose jobs who are looking for PNP's only if I have my FNP.  It's kind of nerve wracking thinking about it.  Especially since I have to start applying to schoools w/in the next 6 months........Maybe I be more clear about it once my Peds rotation is over.  Maybe I can find a PNP there to talk to.....I know Dana would probably encourage me to get my PNP, but I'm so torn right now....

Anyhoo, I'm glad to say I am finally in PEDS & I LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!!!

How is school going for everyone else?