"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

I'm still alive!! Tomorrow is the NCLEX!

So as you can see I have GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohoo!!  I am SO happy that nursing school is over, but can we say holy terrified?  Tomorrow is the NCLEX & I feel thoroughly unprepared.  Fortunately our school provided us with the HURST Review and even though I have been studying this for about 2 weeks now I still feel completely terrified to actually take the test. 
Of my former classmates I know of one so far who has failed....so scary...
The rest of them are chugging along & passing on a daily basis, hopefully I will be one of them!

But to rewind, here are a few pics from graduation & my graduation party that my precious husband & sister threw for me:

That's my baby girl to my right, she looks taller than me!
I seriously couldn't have been cheesing any harder!!

My nursing bestie & his bf hiding in the back!
My study buddy!
My inlaws, aren't they precious!!
Definitely one of the best days of my life!

As I said, tomorrow I take the NCLEX.  Honestly, up until I had the HURST review I really wasn't that nervous.  During the review the teacher advised us that as of 2012 they have changed the test to make it harder & the first time pass rate went from 94% to 88% (or something like that).  Um what?!
Talk about skeered, yep that's me!  BUT, the good news is that at work I have transitioned over from a tech to a graduate nurse & I have been orienting now for about two weeks, no actually longer than that.  I oriented first on the Geri psych floor where I was working & then 2 weeks ago I switched & started orienting on the Med/Surg floor of my hospital.  The first two days we were slammed, I swear I thought my legs were going to fall off!  But this past weekend I worked three days in a row & thankfully Saturday & Sunday weren't THAT bad.  I actually like working on the weekends, it is MUCH calmer...well it was this past weekend anyway.
While I was working I met a girl who graduated in May 2013 & she was in NP school.  She decided to just go straight through. She is going part time & so she has a little ways to go still. I think going part time it should take her about 3 years.  It kind of made me regret not going straight through myself, but then I think about how much I've been working & would I really want to be studying for the NCLEX, worrying about the NCLEX, orienting as a new nurse AND taking graduate classes?  Not really.  So my plan is to start next summer at the same school I got my BSN at. They offer the NP program 100% online & I think that will suit my life perfectly. 
Anyway, that's it for the update, I will try to get back here & update more about work & other things & of course I will update about my NCLEX, whether it be good or bad (hoping & praying for the good though!).  Oh, btw, I asked my boss what would happen if I failed the NCLEX & she was just like "You just take it again" you know, like no biggie.  She said that I would just continue to orient until I passed it.  And since I already got my first nurse pay raise I guess that's not too bad.  Plus, there is a nurse there who is orienting now that I found out last week had failed her NCLEX the first time & she is still orienting, so I guess it wouldn't be the end of the world, but really I just want to be DONE with it & MOVE on to other things.....
Anyway, hope everyone is doing well!!