"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Monday, May 30, 2016

Tomorrow it is...

So tomorrow starts my fourth semester. Although I am excited (and quite a bit nervous) about starting clinicals, I have to admit that I'm still sad that my summer "break" is over...

Normally on the first day of a new semester I stalk the website & wait for all of the information to come up. Then I sit down & put all of the due dates on my calendar and start obsessing over all of the information that I have flooding my brain. But guess what I am choosing to do this time instead? Take my girl and go to the lake. Yep, you heard me & guess what else? I even thought about really rebelling and not even taking my laptop, but then sanity hit. So, even though I am taking 4 teenage girls on a small camping trip, I will still be taking my laptop & checking in with school. I mean I'm not totally crazy. I know I'll at least have the "introduction" post due, you know, the major stuff right at the beginning. We will only be gone 2 days, so I'll be back Wed. evening in plenty of time to properly stalk the webpage and get my assignments written down in my calendar. 

Just 4 more semesters & then I am HOME free!! I can't even put into words how happy I will be to never see another school book EVER again....but until that time I will do my best and keep praying for passing grades. Here's to another semester, but first the sun!!

Monday, May 23, 2016

School's OUT!

Can I just say how MUCH I am loving my tiny break from school? I have a few days to feel like a normal person again. No constant thoughts running through the back of my brain about what assignments I have due, what paper I have to write, what quiz I need to be studying for, or did I miss an assignment, was that quiz this week or last week, wait there was a quiz??!! You get my point.

These few weeks have given me the recharge I needed to plunge back into the thick of it, especially since summer semesters are particularly brutal. Trying to squeeze 17 weeks worth of content into 10 weeks is no joke. Thank goodness I'm only taking one class though. Well, one class, one clinical.

Believe it or not I actually went and bought some books to read FOR FUN! Man I miss reading for fun...I love reading. Right now I'm reading two books and although I know I probably won't finish them before the semester starts back (I mean there is still work and my child and of course several seasons of Chopped to get through on Netflix) hopefully I can read a little bit here and there once school starts. Ok who am I kidding. This semester consists of 3 days of work and 2 days of clinical each week, on top of the actual tests, posts, papers etc. Basically no summer for me, and unfortunately for my 14 year old. Maybe I can find a great spot at the lake to study...We'll see.

Oh & I'll try to keep up with blogging a little better as well :D Here's to a few more days of FREEDOM!!!

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

I'm still here...

I know I haven't posted in 500 years, but I promise I'm still here....and I'm still in NP school. Thankfully I just finished my HARDEST, most stressful semester of all of my nursing school career. This past semester I took Advanced Patho & Advanced Assessment together. Can we say, BIG mistake?? Why didn't anyone tell me how time consuming and hard these classes were? I mean yes, I realize that we're talking Patho & Assessment here, but still, a little warning would have been nice. The funny thing is, I thought I was making the best choice. I mean it was between taking Patho & Pharm together or Patho & Assessment, so naturally I thought I was making the right choice, I mean wouldn't you think so? Well, guess who was wrong, big time?? Me!!
Unfortunately, Pharm was WAY easier than I thought it would be and although assessment wasn't hard persay, it was EXTREMELY time consuming. Between the discussion boards (DBs), the write ups, the quizzes, the videos, the tests and the midterm and final, I really thought I was going to pull every one of my hairs out. Not to mention the DBs for patho, plus the quizzes & 19 page research paper. When I say stressed I'm talking me sitting with my sister in Arby's at the beginning of the semester in tears talking about how it was too hard and that I think I should drop one of the classes...Fast forward to last week when our final grades came out. As in assessment and a B in patho!!!!!!!!! Heck yeah!!!!!! One of the As was a 92.6, just BARELY made the A cutoff and my B was a 85.19, again, a B by the skin of my teeth, but WHO CARES!!!!!!! I can't even explain how happy I am to be done with that dreaded, awful, gut wrenching, blood pressure raising semester. Oh & lest you think I'm exaggerating, when I got done with my patho final (of which I was pretty sure I was going to have a nervous breakdown in the middle of) my blood pressure was 207/117!! Talk about stress. Alas, no sense in dwelling on what is done, I made it out alive and I'm moving on to my FOURTH semester.  The best thing about my fourth semester? Clinical time!!!!!!!!!! This semester (which is a summer semester) I'm only taking Women's Health. That's it. No other classes. Although I have one other pre-req type class (Policy) I didn't want to overburden myself for summer since it's a short semester. So only WH this summer. Then in the fall I am taking Peds & Policy. Then Spring will be adult and then summer is practicum and then I'M DONE!! It's so hard to believe that in a year and a half I'll actually be able to see patients!! Well, once I pass my boards...which is another stressor, but I'm not even going to THINK about that until AFTER I graduate. I mean I have enough stress on my plate without thinking about all that right?
So, one of my friends who graduates this summer (lucky dog) was talking about her job offer. She has been offered a job by her preceptor. It's a private practice setting with several NPs & maybe one PA. Anyway, the offer is this: Pay per patient assuming she will see 25 pts a day which should come out anywhere between 95-100K...and that's it!! No benefits, no malpractice insurance, no CME coverage, no paid vacation. Accascuse me?? I know I said I would take the first job I was offered, and I probably will, but I am at LEAST going to negotiate for SOME benefits. I mean even if they're not going to offer medical insurance, then a the very minimum I want those three things. I mean I've never heard of someone not even paying malpractice, PTO and CME's....I guess we'll see. Just gives me one more reason to open my own practice....I guess we'll see when the time comes.