"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

What is all this STUFF??

Ok, so I know I already posted, but just a quick observation.  I hate it when I go to check out a new blog & there's all this STUFF all over the blog.  What is that stuff & why is it there?  I'm assuming it's to generate money, but it just turns me off.  If I go to a blog that has all that stuff on it I just skip right over it & move on to the next blog.  No likey.

Just my opinion :)

Chapter readings....

Ok, so I'm a pretty rabid avid blog reader (OMG I just realized they put strike through as an option, now I don't have to type the whole <del> thing or whatever it was before & after the word, AWESOME) anyhoo, back at the ranch.
Like I was saying, I luvs me some blogs.  I read lots of nursing & nursing school blogs, and I always read about people & their millions of chapters that they have to read before so & so date and I'm just wondering....are you people really reading these assigned chapters?  I mean who has the time to read this stuff?  I had SIX classes last semester, if I read everything I was supposed to have read I don't know that I would have had the time to do anything else.  Also, the thing is that most of my classmates were like me as well.  I only know of a very few people who actually did all the reading required for our classes.  As a matter of fact there was this one kid that read the whole patho book, not once, BUT TWICE!!!  I mean seriously??  There was stuff in that Patho book that even the teacher admitted she didn't know what they were talking about.  So, why read it??  Am I the crazy one?  Now, that's not to say that I didn't read anything in the book, but I certainly didn't read the chapters that went with each test.  I mean we're talking minimum of six chapters per test ( usually way more) of Patho.  Even if I DID read it, I would probably actually only understand like 85% of it & then I'd probably only remember like 50% of it.  So, why read it?  I used the book as more of a guide.  I followed the outline & then I went through the book & highlighted what I felt was important and can I just say.  That kid that read the whole book twice made an A (he dang sure better have), but I made a B, and totally could have made an A with just a little more effort (and not reading the whole book type of effort either).
So my thought is, with every nurse I've ever talked to saying nursing is almost all OTJ when it comes to learning this stuff, why torture yourself?  And are you REALLY reading all this crap????

Just wondering :)

Monday, May 14, 2012


That's what this girl is.  I want you to meet Syndal, if you haven't already.  Well actually now that's Dr. Syndal.  Yep that's right this girl just recently graduated from her DNP program, and she is SUCH an inspiration.  She is young, hip, sweet, funny [I mean her blog is anyway ;)] driven and just plain fantastic.  She is an oncology RN who just finished her 3 year DNP program, all while having a life AND planning a wedding!!  I am so proud of her accomplishment and honestly it just plain inspires me.  Sometimes I look at the years I have ahead of me & think I'll never get there, plus I fret that I'll be so involved in school that my life will pass me by, especially my children.  But Syndal proved that you can have it all.  And I hope that you'll visit her blog & give her a little congrats, cause boy this girl deserves it!!!

Synfully Delicious: I'm back and I'm a DNP!

Thursday, May 10, 2012

A whole lot of nuttin'

That's literally what I've been doing since I got out of school.  Ok, that's not completely true, we did go to Lake Winnie  which was really fun.  But unfortunately I forgot my stupid phone so I didn't get any pictures to post on my other blog.  Besides that day though I have basically been a super slug.  Today I stayed in bed until I picked Alei up at 3:00.  Isn't that crazy?  I can't help it.  I KNOW I have stuff I COULD be doing, but it's all yucky stuff.  I mean do I really want to clean my bathroom?  Noooo.  Although I know it NEEDS cleaning terribly.  But I guess I'm just using this time to decompress after my semester.  I'll get it moving soon I'm sure.  Guess what I did do though?  I got out my Patho book & workbook, sat down at the kitchen table & then changed my mind b/c I felt guilty b/c I had other stuff I should be doing.  But even though I did get up from the kitchen table, I don't recall if I actually did the things I was supposed to be doing.
Anyway, I'm not going to beat myself up too badly though b/c my kids will be out of school in two weeks & then I'm sure I'll be non-stop.  I can't WAIT to hit the lake.  I love the lake.  But, don't get me wrong, I AM going to do that workbook this summer.  There are many concepts that I just don't get.  I suck terribly at figuring out what is wrong with a patient.  Yes I know that a certain disease causes certain symptoms, but if you give me those symptoms in a scenario & then tell me to figure out what's wrong with the person, FORGET IT, not gonna happen.  And that kind of worries me.  I read this really great blog from an ER nurse & I'm always thinking "How does she know all this".  I guess one day I'll know more, but that day seems like a long way off.  So until then I'm going to work on my Patho workbook & hope some more of this stuff starts to click.....Ah school, how I miss thee....

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Don't you just love free stuff??

Well I do too!!  This sweet little lady over at Life's a Dance is giving away some pretty awesome stuff, as a matter of fact here is what she's giving away:

The only thing you have to do to win is mention her post on your blog, like her on FB or Twitter & then go to her blog & tell her.  Ok there may be a couple more ways to enter, but those are all I could think of.  She has the whole list on her blog.  So go there & do that if you want to win any of this great stuff above! :)  Good luck!!

Life's A Dance: My First Giveaway

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Linky party, why I became a nurse(ing student)

Ok since this is nursing week there are lots of people posting why they became a nurse, and even though I'm just a nursing student I thought I'd play along with Anna's question of "Why I became a nurse".

If you are new followers of this blog & you don't read my other blog then this will be new for you.

On May 2, 2008 I got a phone call at work from one of my mother's really good friends saying that my mother was in the hospital & that she was almost non-responsive & that my sister & I should come right away.  (We live about an hour from where my mom lived.)  So, we immediately went to the hospital where my mom was in the ER.  She was in a stupor, barely responsive and we weren't sure what was wrong.  After many tests the doctors told us that she had a huge tumor the size of a lemon on her cerebellum and that it needed to be removed immediately.

Now, some background.  My mom had been sick for several years from what she said was depression.  She had basically become a recluse in her home & had visibly aged considerably from a boisterous, vibrant woman to a pale skinned, timid homebody.  In 2007 there was a mass found on one of her lungs which was biopsied & came back benign, but a 2nd opinion was never obtained.

So that day when the doctor said she needed surgery it was a no brainer, it had to be done.  He told us all the side affects.  That she may not come out of it.  If she did she could have impairments, memory loss.  Her personality could be changed.  There was no doubt, all of that was better than losing her.  So into surgery she went.  Hours later we were able to see her when she was in recovery and believe it or not it was like a miracle, our old mom was back.  She was joking & laughing, it was like old times.  We even got the nurses in the ICU ward in on it, which was a relief for them.  One nurse said that she was going to allow us to stay after visiting hours b/c we were so much fun & also b/c she was used to her patients being non-responsive so this was a pleasant change for her.  Mom was so different.  Or actually she was so much the same, the same as she USED to be.  But the next day came the bad news.  The tumor was actually a metastasis from her lungs.  She was diagnosed with Stage IV small cell lung cancer, which had metastasized to her brain & other places.  Talk about devastation.  We didn't know what that meant, but I could tell from the response (or should I say non-response) from the doctor that it wasn't good.  They talked about radiation to the brain to get those to shrink & then possible chemotherapy.  It's all such a blur now.  It was so nice to be with her during that time, so nice to have the person back we had grown up with.  We had to wait for her head to heal a bit before  she could start the radiation & during that time I quit my job & moved in with my mom.  After a couple of weeks or so she started radiation, but one day while she was receiving her treatment her head started to leak at the incision site.  She went back to her surgeon & found out that her incision site had an infection in it and they had to start her on some pretty heavy antibiotics, therefore the radiation treatment had to stop and it just went downhill from there.
The picture at the top is of her after her surgery sitting in her chair on her porch reading from her daily devotional book.  This was the person we had been missing for so long.  She was so happy.  The picture below is at one of her follow up appointments after stopping her radiation treatments, she was very tired and hated going to these appointments. 
Unfortunately she was never able to resume her radiation treatments and on August 2, 2008 she passed away.  My sister and I were in bed with her when she died and it was the saddest day of my life.  But I know that one day we'll be together again in heaven where we'll never have to part from each other again.  
So, now to the point.  When my mom was sick we moved her in with us and she would sit outside for hours at a time.  It was summer time and she LOVED to be outdoors.  So every morning she'd have me wheel her outside in her wheelchair so that she could enjoy the outdoors.  Sometimes she would read, sometimes we would talk or I would read to her & then other times she would just sit & be silent.  It was during those silent times that I often wondered what she was thinking.  It made me think about my own life.  I knew that if she could she would have changed so many things about her life (or maybe she wouldn't have), but I knew that there had been things that she had wanted to pursue in her life that she never got to.  So after she died I decided then and there that I was no longer going to waste any more of the years that God gave me.  I was going to make a difference in this world and in order to do that I needed to go back to school & nursing was what I decided.  I knew that I wanted to help people and I knew that I wanted to make money while doing it and honestly I knew that I didn't want to be a nurse and I wasn't capable of going to medical school (I know that sounds contradictory to the title), but I knew right then & there that I DID want to be a nurse practitioner.  I've worked for many practitioner's over the years and I decided that I wanted to open my own clinic, maybe a couple and so that year I started on my journey that led me to my acceptance into the Spring 2012 nursing program where I have now completed my first semester and am proud to say am a SECOND semester nursing student.  I don't want to be at the end of my life and have any regrets, so even though I will be 40 this year & sometimes I feel discouraged by that, I just have to keep reminding myself that no matter what I'm doing the years are going to keep rolling by (God willing) so I might as well be doing something productive with them! 

I know that my mom would be SO proud of me and it's always bittersweet when I experience an accomplishment in school b/c I just wish that I could call her & share it with her, but one day she'll know all about it.  

So that's my short version of why I became a nurse(ing student).  Hope it wasn't too jumbled!  :)

Monday, May 7, 2012


Sixteen weeks!  Sixteen weeks?  Sixteen weeks :(  WHAT am I going to do for sixteen weeks!! One thing that I hate about my program is that unlike most other surrounding schools it does not go through summer.  Therefore I now am the proud owner of sixteen weeks of nothing to do.  Ok, so not exactly NOTHING.  I mean my children will be out of school in 3 weeks & then I'll have plenty to do, but lazing around all summer is not what I call productive.  I want to be MOVING forward in school. Gregory said that next summer we can apply for our externship, which sounds REALLY exciting.  I'm hoping to get one here in town, preferably in the ER or the ICU, anything but Med/Surge.  I don't see myself being a floor nurse.  Of course what do I know?  It's not like I've ever been a floor nurse, lol.  We are also thinking about going ahead & getting our CNA license.  One of the 5th semester nursing students that we talked to the other day said that her biggest regret was not getting her CNA license & working as a CNA or tech. She said she felt like that would really have given her an advantage.  She applied for this really great residency program at Vanderbilt but she didn't get it & she feels like that experience would have given her a bit more leverage if she had it.  I was planning on getting my CNA license in June anyway, so if Gregory & I can both get in for the June class that would be great.  That's 2 weeks long.  Then maybe I can start working a little bit at the hospital during school.  Right now I am still getting my unemployment so that has helped, but I don't know how long that will last, so I'd like to go ahead & have that in place for when the time comes.  Of course I could always volunteer more days at the health clinic, I may go ahead & do that for the next three weeks at least until my shadow gets out of school.  That will at least keep me pre-occupied until then.  We'll see I guess.  I was even thinking about doing some work in my Patho workbook.  I mean who can ever know too much Patho?  :)

What are you guys planning for the summer?

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Officially a SECOND semester nursing student!!!

So it's official, I have survived my first semester of nursing school!  1 down 4 to go, but for now I'm just extremely happy that the first semester is over & done with.  Here are my grades.  Health Assessment C (boo), Patho B, Gerontology A, Professionalism A, Health Trends/Issues A, Assessment Skills lab P.
It was such a relief to walk out of my last final today with a 92 & know that I was done with 1/5 of my classes, and that I was 1/5 of the way to changing my and my family's future forever.

After class was over a large group of us (about half of our class) met at a Mexican restaurant for lunch & some drinks & it was just so nice to be involved with such a great group of people who were so serious about their future.  Pursuing nursing as a profession is so exciting.  It's just exciting to know that my job will no longer be a job but will be a profession.  And while I was thinking about that it just really sunk in that one day I'll have a career & no longer a job & it was just a really great feeling.

So I took a couple of pics & I thought I'd post the one of me & Gregory.  Gregory & I have become very close this semester, which is really exciting.  Our goals are almost identical & I kept telling him it's like we're twins from another mother.  I was very grateful to have met him & if things go the way I plan one day we'll be opening the Kinney Clinic.  (Kidding, that's not what it would be called), but you get my point.

Anyhoo, this is me & Gregory, now OFFICIALLY second semester nursing students!!!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

One more day, one more test....

Can you believe it's almost here?  I know me EITHER!!  Today was my Patho test, I made a B!!!!!!  Which means I got a B for the semester.  Whew, so happy.  Tomorrow is my Gero test & then I'm done with my first semester of nursing school!!!!!!  I was talking to my nursing bestie & we both agreed that looking back to the beginning of the semester it seemed so much harder than it actually turned out to be.  Now don't get me wrong, 6 classes were no piece of cake, but what seemed so daunting at the beginning turned out to be very doable.  I reminded him that we needed to remember that when third semester rolls around and we're both freaking out.  After tomorrow we have almost 4 months off for summer.  I just can't even deal with that huge time frame.  I mean I don't even understand why we can't go straight through, I would like that so much better.  So, I guess I'm just going to have to fill my summer with lots of lake time, and hopefully some review Patho.  I have a workbook that I had for the class that I didn't really utilize, so I think I'm going to work on that this summer, just to keep it fresh in my mind.  Also, I'll make sure to perform a head to toe assessment on my daughter & her friends at least once a week to keep that fresh too.  (They love doing it).  And I think I may even pick up some extra time at the clinic where I volunteer, see if I can sharpen my skills & maybe pick up a few new ones.  We'll see I guess when the time comes.  But for now I just have to get through one more test & then tomorrow about half of our class is meeting for Mexican & Margarita's after our last final, so I am very much looking forward to that.  I really like most of the people I've met so far!!!  I'll try to get a few pictures to post on here as well.

Woohoo, one semester down four to go!!!!!!!!