"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Halfway through semester 2....

So today was the halfway mark in clinicals, three down, three to go and we've only got like 7 more weeks until semester 2 is over, but I have to make a confession.  I still don't feel like I know a darn thing!  I just don't feel like I'm studying enough & learning enough.  I mean seriously, I just don't see myself being able to see a patient any time soon, hell when it came to assessing my patient I had to go to last semester's book & look up some things to assess (& I wasn't the only one)......Am I ever going to feel like I actually know something?

Please tell me there are other nurses out there who felt like this at first, but now they are seasoned nurses who know EVERYTHING!!  Ok, I know you don't know everything, but at least you know stuff, right?  Nerves are kicking in!!  Maybe I should study a bit more you say?  I agree!!  Thanks for the advice...


Thursday, October 18, 2012

First "true" clinical day...

Today was my first "real" clinical day.  I was able to work alone (which I much prefer) with my patient and I have to say I REALLY enjoyed this.  Of course, although I was the only one responsible for my patient I was sure to help out my fellow students when they needed it.  And I have to say they are all pretty great!  We have 7 people in our clinical group & I am so glad that we all get along & help each other out, I feel really blessed to be with this group of people.  Of course like I said in my last post, our actual "hands on" patient time today was only around an hour & a half. Once again we were in pre-conference from 6:30-8:00, we then had to go & sort out our medications which took until about 9:30 for all of us to get done & by the time I got my patient out of activity & finished her assessment it was 11:00, which is their lunch time.  So then  about 11:30 or so we all went to lunch where we stayed until 1:00!!!  Guess what time post conference is supposed to start?  Yep, you guessed it 1:00.  So we just had time to go back to our patient's, perform their afternoon vitals & then it was back down to post conference & then home.  Again, I'm not complaining, just stating.  I was much more prepared today for the assessment.  Last week I was kind of floundering around trying to remember all my assessment stuff, but today I made myself a list of "tests" to perform, my precious patient was so cooperative.  When I came back in the afternoon to tell her bye she said "Are you going to come back tomorrow and do all of this stuff over again?" lol.  I assured her that I wasn't but that someone else might come & bug her.  She was so pleasant & cooperative & funny as heck!  All in all it was a good day & I'm looking forward to my next day.  Unfortunately next week I don't get a patient, I have to follow the wound care nurse around.  As I stated before, I loved having my own patient, I am not big on "shadowing" people & I'm afraid that's all next week is going to be.  Fortunately the people that followed her around today did say that she let them change a dressing.  Jeez, I would hope so.  I guess I'll just have to see when I get there.

Two days down, 4 more to go!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Fall break & first clinical...

This week is our wonderful miniscule fall break.  We actually only get 2 days of fall break, but luckily our teacher gave us a break & is giving us Friday as well, yay! Of course in the middle of our break is our 2nd clinical on Thursday.  Speaking of which, last week we had our first clinical and I have to say it kind of went how I thought & it kind of didn't.
First of all, the actual "hands on" patient time was shorter than I expected seeing as our professor kept us in pre-conference from 6:30 to almost 8:00 & then we were in lunch from 11:00 to like 12:30, and when we went back upstairs we had to report BACK downstairs for post conference at 1:00.  So much for 6:30-2:30 & a 30 minute lunch.  Now don't get me wrong, I am TOTALLY not complaining about this, actually I was very happy with this arrangement, I'm just mentioning it.  Second, it wasn't as boring as I thought but there was quite a bit of walking around checking to see if other people needed our help, especially since we had to share a patient who just so happened to sleep ALL day.  Our poor little patient doesn't sleep very well at night so they sleep all day instead, so needless to say we didn't have to do much for that person.
Now to the bad part.  As I stated, for the first week we didn't have one patient to ourselves, we actually shared a patient with a partner. Sooo, that meant dividing up the clinical forms we had to turn in, which is fine, he did the meds/care plan & I did the rest.  Now this would have been honkey dorey except for the fact that I didn't think about both of us turning in the same paperwork, I mean I just didn't see the point in the redundancy & so I let my partner turn it in and I didn't.....Did you hear me? I DID NOT turn in my clinical paperwork for the first week!!!  So a couple of days after it was due I started thinking about that & I messaged my fellow students & asked them what they did & OF COURSE, they all turned in separate paperwork.  Which means....I am the ONLY one that didn't turn in my clinical paperwork!!!  Oh joy of joys.   I mean seriously!!  I don't know what I was thinking!! So I sent our professor an email & told her my rationale for not submitting my paperwork, to which she replied "I didn't receive anything in the dropbox from you.  I guess you'll just have to email it to me since it's late & the dropbox is closed".  Obviously she didn't read my email at all, but hey, as long as she let me submit it, that's all I care about.  I had about a day of freaking out thinking that I wasn't going to be able to turn it in at all, so I was very relieved to get the email from her & I promptly emailed that bad boy right over.   Whew.... crisis averted (this time).

On a different note, I have to say that I'm not sure if the teachers all got together & decided to torture us this semester but this semester has almost been like having all my classes online.  Now online classes are great, I have no problem with them, but it's so weird because there will be something due & the teachers will just post it online & if you don't check that stuff often well guess what?  You missed it.  It's kind of like a scavenger hunt figuring out if something is due or not.  Are we the only ones going through this or is this normal behavior for nursing professors? I mean seriously, if you're going to put all your lectures online & only use class time for questions then go ahead & make this a hybrid class & stop torturing us with a 3 hour class full of nothingness.....Speaking of which, one of those classes is Pharm and can I just say that I am NOT looking forward to calculating meds?? Is med calculation really that hard when you're a nurse?  Just wondering if I should be studying this much harder (ok at all, you're right I haven't looked at it at all).

Anyhoo, that's what is going on in this part of the world.  How are things in your neck of the nursing school world?

Tuesday, October 9, 2012


Ok so for all of my nursey students/followers or for anyone that wants to read a REALLY great blog.  You seriously need to head over to "Life in the Clinic" and follow it.  This is written by a fantastic pediatric NP! She writes about interesting cases, frustrating job experiences and just every day things that us nursing students will probably one day deal with, plus she pretty stinking smart! So, seriously, why are you still reading this blog?  Head over there RIGHT NOW & check it out!!! :D

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Frustration beyond frustration!!!

Honestly I just don't even know where to begin.  Just trying to type this post makes me want to pull my hair out!! Here goes anyway, in Pharm we have this teacher that lectures instead of teaches.  Lecturing is all fine & well if you're teaching PSYCHOLOGY but this is a SCIENCE course with actual working parts of the body and responses that we need to UNDERSTAND.  Don't just lecture to us, tell us to read the 26 chapters & then expect us to teach this to ourselves!!  I have literally been on the verge of tears AND in tears all day today over the frustration that is our Pharmacology class.  Then on top of no explanation of what we're supposed to be learning, we only have FOUR, count them FOUR grades in the whole class & two of them are the midterm & the final.  So what do we get to study for the midterm?  A test bank of 270 possible questions that we have to answer ourselves and then HOPE that we have chosen the correct answer & study them!  Am I being crazy?? Is this a good way to learn/study???????  THEN to top it off, he posts these other questions & gives us the answers & the rationale's with them & we're all getting exciting thinking this is what we've been waiting for, only to learn that these are the wrong questions.  UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Where do I even start?? I guess I just start & pray for the best......

Lost in Pharm....

So after many frustrating posts on FB between our classmates, I just finally sent him a message and asked him why he couldn't just give us the answers/rationale's to the test bank he expects us to study, just like he did for the other questions & lo & behold an hour later we FINALLY had the answers/rationale's.  I felt like a 2 ton weight had been lifted off my shoulders!! So NOW we can study the questions knowing we have the correct answers and the rationale's for why they are correct.  Whew, at least now I don't see an F in my future!!

Thanks for your sympathy, lol.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Don't like the drama...

So after my last post there was definitely some drama that ensued over the whole sharing fiasco.  One girl (one of the non-sharers) even blocked me from seeing content on her FB, lol.  Probably because when she posted "Will.Never.Happen.Again" I posted under that "Agreed".  I mean seriously, people's selfishness never ceases to surprise me BUT what I did learn from this experience is that some people need to be kept at arm's length.  I try really hard to stay OUT of the drama, which unfortunately there is plenty of.  I just don't understand why though.  Believe me nursing school is hard enough without creating extra drama.  I got some really good advice from a 3rd semester.  She told me to stay away from certain people and stay off of FB!! Well, although I do like that advice, our class communicates a lot through FB.  We have a specific FB page just for our semester & then we have one for the nursing program.  It really is a great tool for sharing info, asking questions, etc., but it does lend to a slight bit of drama/angst.  Oh technology.

Ok, on to other things...

This Wednesday we have a flu clinic at a local Nissan plant and we get to practice giving SHOTS!! Woohoo! I'm so excited.  I can't wait to start sticking me some people, lol.  At least with this practice I can go into a clinical setting & not have to worry about it being my first time.  Don't like that we have to wear our yucky white scrubs, but still excited to be doing something clinical.  It'll be my first real nursy thing ;D  Of course we start clinical rotations two weeks from now & we'll get to do lots of nursy things, but I'm afraid with it being in a nursing home it'll be more like lots of CNA things.

Anyhoo, gotta run & study for my 2nd Intro test tomorrow.  Hopefully it'll be better than the last one, which I didn't study for at all.

Hope everyone has a great week!