"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Saturday, June 30, 2012

After tomorrow only 8 weeks!!

Sheesh, 8 weeks until school starts and guess who has lost NO weight!!!  Yep, me.  I mean seriously, I don't know what I'm thinking.  Those white scrubs are starting to haunt my nightmares!!

If only I looked this good in white scrubs!

I got a letter in the mail today from school saying I had $110.00 in tickets, haha.  Guess I should have stuck with the student parking lot & not the teacher parking lot huh?  Oh well, I wonder if they can just take it out of my student loan money?  Speaking of which, I think I really need to look into some scholarships.  I want to, but that whole process just seems so daunting... Maybe I'll go in & talk to one of the financial aid people & they can point me in the right direction.  I am sweating bullets just thinking about it.  Last semester I went into debt $10,500 & this year it's like $12,500.  I mean by the time I'm done with my BSN I will be in debt $35,000!!!!!!!! I mean and that's from a STATE school!!  Just the thought of that makes me shake in my boots.

You know what I need?  I need a job in a hospital that is willing to pay for my schooling in return for me working for them.  I'm thinking that's a fair trade off.  Does anyone do that currently??  I know there's a hospital in the town over that does that.  I guess I'd work as a CNA there while I was in school & then after I get my RN license I'd have to work there for a while to pay for it.  I think that's a fair trade off, I mean I plan on working as a RN while I get my nurse practitioner's license anyway.  I have been putting off getting my CNA license this summer though b/c it involves taking a 2 week course, but if I wait until the end of this next semester I can just take the test w/o having to take the course.  Of course that means I can't work in the hospital until then.  Hmm, what do you think I should do??  Go ahead & take the CNA test & get a job?  I mean I could definitely use the money, this measly $220.00 a week I get from unemployment doesn't really offer me much "fun" money, BUT it allows me to spend the whole summer with my babies (yes I know they're not babies any more, but they'll always be babies in my heart).  Of course I wouldn't HAVE to go to work yet, I could wait until August 1st when they go back to school.  I mean I don't go back until August 27th.  That would give me a few weeks to work until I started school & then I'm sure they will work around my school schedule right??  I know you don't know.  I guess I just need to go & talk to someone there huh? Yeah, I know you're right.

On another note, guess who has been studying their patho & assessment over the summer??? You got THAT right, NOT me!! (Gotcha didn't I?)  I swear I've pulled out my book like three times & then thought "I really need to clean this kitchen table off" & put the book back down & the kitchen table STILL didn't get cleaned off, hahaha!
Not my kitchen table, but VERY close!

It does worry me a bit though.  I mean seriously, after one semester I still feel like a complete I-D-I-O-T when it comes to knowing the body systems & how they work etc.  Which is another reason working in the hospital will probably help me.  But I digress.

I guess as you can tell this post isn't really much more than a bunch of rambling thoughts, but that's how I am.  I start with one thought & that thought leads to another & by the time I'm done I'm wondering if Flamingo's are an endangered species!!

Haha, I guess I'm done for now.  Hope everyone else is having a great summer & for those lucky ducks whose program runs through summer, hope you're studying your buttumpskies off!


Monday, June 18, 2012

Do It Anyway!

Found this on a blog by a DNP student, it's from Mother Teresa and I loved it.  I thought it was appropriate for my school blog because sometimes we just don't want to take another test, or study one more hour, or re-write our notes, but we need to just DO IT ANYWAY.  And in the end we need to remember that the reason we are caregivers is to help others and we should always treat those people as if we are treating our Father (in heaven).  If we practice like this then how can we do wrong?


People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, people may be jealous; be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway.

Love this! 

Colossians 3:23 "Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people."

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

To the future & beyond...

The other day my nursing bestie & I were having a conversation about our future office.  Are we counting our chickens before the eggs have hatched?  I don't think so. I like to think we're speaking our future into being.  I know it sounds very "Secretish", but I just can't help but dream about the future.  I mean isn't that what people do?  Dream, think and plan for the future?
Now I have to admit this is a new concept for me. It was born after my mother died.  My mom was a fly by the seat of your pants kind of girl and unfortunately (or fortunately it depends on how you look at it) I developed that way of living myself.  But what I found was, when you live your life without a plan, or without any concrete goals, life just seems to happen to you.  And by the time my mom passed away I decided that I was tired of life just happening to me, I wanted to take life by the throat and squeeze every good thing out of it that I could (that kind of sounds violent, didn't mean it like that).  Which is when my plan to go to nursing school was born. I knew in the very beginning that I didn't want to be a nurse, my ultimate goal has always been to become a nurse practitioner.  I knew from the very beginning of this idea that I wanted to open my OWN practice.  And what's so interesting is meeting people along the way that have my same goal.  Mind you, not every nursing student wants to be a nurse practitioner, but it's funny because two of the people I have gotten closest to in nursing school have both had that goal.  And with Gregory, my nursing bestie (ok is the fact that I'm calling him my bestie on anyone else's nerves but mine), we just have such similar goals that it just seems crazy for us not to go into practice together in the end.  Of course it took a little bit of cajoling (not much mind you) to get him to see that he needs to go straight through  like I'm doing instead of taking a few years off.  I mean neither of us are spring chickens, although he is younger than me by 9 years. I just don't see the need to take time off at this stage in our lives.  If we were in our 20's then yes I could see that, but by the time we graduate from nursing school we'll be 42 & 33 respectively, so I say let's just power on through.  It'll take at least three years to finish our master's/dnp program (whichever it may be at that time) so we'll get plenty of practice working during those years (ok I know in the world of medicine where things change daily, three years is not a long time, but I've got to maximize my time here).  By that time we'll be 45 & 36 and I just think we can do it.  Of course all of this is assuming we can pass all of our classes :)
So, the question is, are we crazy to think so far ahead?  Does everyone else plan like this?  Or is your goal just to get a nursing job & work.  I just want so many things in life and I know that being a nurse isn't going to get me there.  I NEED to own my own clinic, or at least have a partner.  Besides, what's wrong with dreaming???

Sunday, June 3, 2012

12 weeks!!

So yesterday I talked to my nursing bestie and he said what I've always said, he was bored, lol.  I TOLD him.  We were both lamenting that our program doesn't go through the summer like other programs around.  I mean seriously, we could be done TWO WHOLE SEMESTERS early if our program went through the summer months.  So after we got done complaining for a good 10 minutes I went and looked at my calendar & realized that we only have 12 weeks left until school starts again, woohoo.  So four weeks down, only 12 more to go.  And yes, I have actually started enjoying my summer. The kids are out of school & we've already been to the lake 3 times.  It's different from last summer though, this year we're actually having a spring, which is so nice.  Spring is tied for my favorite season.  I love it when the days get longer and it's warm enough to swim during the day, but still cook enough to wear a light jacket at night.  I'm sure the more summer goes and the more relaxed I get then I probably won't be as ready to jump back into school.  Ok, you're right, you know me better than that, I will ALWAYS want to be in school (well at least until I'm done).

But in the interim this is what I've been enjoying:

with these precious faces:

Thank God they're in school or else it would be so much harder to leave them and go to school myself.

I hope everyone else is enjoying their summer break.  :)