"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Monday, June 17, 2013

Night shift...


The other day I got a text to work night shift, 7p-7a.  Well by the time I read the text it was already 3 pm & needless to say I wasn't going to get very much sleep beforehand if I was to work that shift so I compromised & told the floor supervisor that I would work until 2 am. Now mind you this is my first hospital job & working nights was of course something I'd never done, so I was interested to see what it was all about.

Can I just say how much I love night shift? I mean talk about a MUCH more relaxed environment, I mean whoa the difference between night & day is, well, like night & day ;) If you've worked night shift you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about.  No baths, no feedings, no visitors, no office personnel, I mean strictly meds & paperwork.  Uh hello night shift glad to have met you. 

So here's what I'm thinking.  I never thought I could do night shift.  I always thought I'd be WAY too tired & that I'd never get my sleep cycle to function that way, but of course I've never tried.  The night shift nurses look pretty perky if you ask me, actually better than the day shift nurses.  So now I'm thinking I might like to try that.  Add to this the fact that they get paid more, hello! It actually looks pretty good to me, but of course I was only there until 2 am :D  I don't know that I could have done another 5 hours, especially since I didn't have any more vitals to get for 4 more hours & I was getting sort of sleepy by that point.  BUT had I napped before hand, who knows?  I'm thinking the best hours ever would be to work Tuesday day & then Wed & Thur nights.  Three days in a row but only 2 nights.  Sounds good, but that's just a theory until I've actually done it huh?

It's something to think about anyway. 

Any night shift nurses out there with advice?

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Made my decision...

Ok so I've had an ongoing debate with myself over whether or not I should go for the DNP or the FNP when I graduate next May.  I have looked into LOTS of programs & have gotten TONS of advice & I have finally made my decision.  I am not going to go for my DNP right now.  All of the schools I looked at for the DNP are about 3 years long, on top of being much more expensive than if I go for my FNP.  Roll in the fact that the so called "requirement" of the DNP by 2015 isn't going to happen & I have decided that I just want to go for my FNP & let the chips fall where they may. 

The program that I am going for is about an hour away from my house & it's a hybrid program.  I will only have to go to campus one day a week & the rest of the time the courses are online.  The program is 4 semesters long as opposed to 7 or 8 & I will be done in about 18 months.  I have to say that now that I've made my decision I am SO excited.  I can't wait to get this last year done & under my belt & get started with my master's program!!  THIS is my dream.  THIS is why I went to nursing school in the first place.  I have wanted to be a NP since I started this process & now I am finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  To think I only have 2 1/2 more years & I will have accomplished what I set out to accomplish (God willing) makes me soo happy. 

Right now there are three offices in my town that employ NP's (well that are well known, there may be others that I just don't know about).  One is a NP owned practice, which she just hired another NP to work with her, & the other two are basically walk in clinics.  Well one is a walk in clinic & a regular clinic put together, which when I own my own practice will be the model that I will choose.  Fortunately for me that one is very open to precepting, so I'm pretty sure I can get a preceptor job at probably either one of those.  Actually I don't think finding a preceptor in my area will be hard at all.  (Knock on wood) 

Anyhoo, that's my decision  about school.  NOW I need to make a decision about paying for school.  The hospital where I work does the whole pay for your school & then you work for us for 2 years thing, BUT I just have to decide do I want to work for them for 2 years.  Of course the good thing about the hospital where I work is that there are physicians who are employed by the hospital & if I were to work for one of them it would still be considered part of the hospital, so techincally I could do that for 2 years, get some experience under my belt & then strike out on my own.  Well with a partner of course.  Again, I know that's 2 1/2 years down the road, but you know me, I'm ALWAYS thinking ahead. 

Ok, enough about this long post, just thought I'd share what I had decided.  Now I really can't wait for school to start back, sheesh I wish I had a fast forward button!!

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Put on call AGAIN!

Time to look for a 2nd job.  Today is the THIRD shift in a row that I have been put "on call". Which basically means that I have to be available to come into work should they need me for the whole 12 hours, thus I can travel no farther than 30 minutes from my home b/c I have to be there w/in 30 minutes or so if they decide they need me.  And while I understand low census I still don't think it's fair that I've been the one to have to take call for my last 3 scheduled shifts, I mean I'm thinking they should be switching this around & not just putting ME on call.  I know it's a Saturday & all but I think I'm going to send my boss a little text.  I mean this is ridiculous, I've worked ONE shift this week.  Not a happy camper.  Unfortunately b/c this is such a small, rural hospital there is nowhere to float to if your floor has too many techs & not enough patients.  Therefore I started applying for jobs at the hospital where I do my clinicals. It's a much bigger hospital & I'd say the chance of being called out for low census is very low seeing as they have something like 9 floors as compared to our 2 & they use techs everywhere not just on Med/Surg.  Plus my nursing bestie just started there as a Nurse Extern (glorified tech) & I would love to work with him. 

Other than that, summer is going great.  I am liking my job more & more (I was nervous there for a minute thinking I had chosen the wrong field).  I guess it helps when you start connecting with the people there, it kinda sucks being the new person. My baby girl has been gone now for almost 2 weeks, the longest she's ever been gone & she asked me the other day if she could stay longer than she was initially supposed to.  It looks like she may not come home until after th 4th!!  Crazy that she'll have been gone a month.  But I've done better than I thought I would.  I'm happy that she is getting this experience.  I have to say I'm JUUUUST about ready to start back to school, even though my nursing bestie won't be with me :'( I'm ready to get this last year DONE!! I can't believe that next May I will be graduating with my Bachelor's degree.  I know my mom would be so proud of me, I wish she were here to see it all. 

Anyway, I hope that you guys are having a great summer so far.  I mean I guess technically summer hasn't even started yet has it?  Oh well, don't work too hard, try to get out & play some this summer!

Later taters,

Monday, June 10, 2013

How will I know?

"if he really loves me? I say a prayer with every heart beat" ok I couldn't resist.  I wrote the title & then the song just came to my mind.  Of course any youngun's won't even know the song, lol. 

So, I've been reading my fav blogs (Adventures of a PICU Nurse Practitioner) being one of them & I am just wondering, how will I know where I really want to be when I graduate?  As it looks now  I am looking at 3 more years of schooling after my RN for my DNP & so I am wondering, how will I know where I want to spend those 3 years?  I have always said that I didn't want to do Med/Surg, but really how will I know?  I am so excited that next semester is my CC & Peds rotation, but really that only gives me four real rotations that I've had.  Well five if you count the SNF, but that's not even a consideration.  So, by the time next semester is over I'll have had Med/Surg, L & D, Peds & CC.  Wait, I think we have a psych semester too at some point, although I'm not 100% positive about that.  But really how does 12 weeks of a clinical tell me that that's where I want to be for the next 3 years?  And also, it leaves so much that I HAVEN'T experienced.  How do I know if I want to work somewhere if I haven't ever experienced it?  Am I putting the cart before the horse?  Should I just stop wondering & wait until I've had my next 2 semesters to decide?  I also hate that clinicals aren't a TRUE representation of how it's going to be when you graduate.  Well, at least it hasn't been so far.  But I'm thinking next semester will be better b/c we have a chance to follow a preceptor & not an instructor.  I SERIOUSLY hope that I get a preceptor.  

Anyhoo,  summer is dragging along & I've been working as much as I can, that is when I don't get put on call.  Can I just say that being put on call kind of sucks?  I swear there are days when I PRAY that I'll get that phone call at 5:00 am (& of course it never comes) & then there's days like today that I WANT to work & of course the phone rings at 5:00 & here I am making $1.25 an hour while not being able to go over 30 minutes away from home just on the off chance that I get called in to work (hasn't happened yet).

What about you guys?  What are you doing for the summer?  Oh did I also mention that my daughter is in California until probably after the 4th?  I mean that child is my shadow & I haven't been without her by my side for more than 5 days since she's been born & now she's over 2000 miles away without me for a month!!  Sheesh, this doesn't help the summer to go any faster, although I have to admit I have been having a blast with my boy.  Lots of fishing this summer so far :D

Hope everyone else is having a great beginning of their summer!

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Will I work at this hospital once I become a nurse?

That's usually the first question I get when someone learns that I'm a nursing student at the hospital I work at.  For now my pat answer is "I'm not sure yet, we'll see" but I guess if I were being honest the answer would probably be no.  See this hospital is a very small, rural hospital & like I've probably said before, some of the patients are more like nursing home patients than just regular old sick patients on a Med/Surg floor.  I'm talking total care, from bathing to toileting to feeding and while that wouldn't be so bad if you actually had techs to help you, at this hospital you're LUCKY if a tech is scheduled & then sometimes it's only one tech for a floor with 33 rooms, some of them double occupancy rooms.  Uh no thanks!  Then on top of that the pay is lower than at the hospital where I do my clinicals.  And further more, I live about an hour from a big city where there is a REALLY great children's hospital that I might like to work at, so basically I don't really see myself staying at this hospital, but I guess one never knows the future huh?

Just curious, does the hospitals you work at have techs for every shift?  Even if they are lucky enough to get a tech, it's usually only day shift, night shift usually gets the shaft. What does your hospital do?