"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Monday, January 30, 2012

First Patho test...

Tomorrow is my first patho test. I'm not really nervous I'm just not prepared. I definitely didn't study as much as I should have but I think it's because I was mentally unprepared and didn't know how to study. So instead of trying to get through it, I just avoided it until like the last 2 days and now the test is tomorrow and I've probably studied about 4 out of 10 chapters.  And to top it all off I am so tired and so just want to go to bed and I should be staying up and studying but I just want to go to bed at 8:00. I'm debating going to bed now and then just getting up early and studying, but I think I've said on here plenty of times how I feel about getting up early. But still an hour earlier to study with a fresh mind may be better than staying up late and trying to power through it with a dead mind. I've done pretty good on most of my quizzes I've gotten mostly 80's and 90's. And now that I know how to study for the test I'll be more prepared for the next 5 tests. Plus some of the students in the semester ahead of us said she grades on a pretty steep curve and that no one in her class failed last semester, so that makes me feel a little better. Anyway I'm gonna go either study some more or go to take a nap or go to bed but either way I'll post my grades as soon as I know it.  Pray for me!!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

A small relief...

So today was our first unofficial study group. Basically it was just me & another student. Our morning class was cancelled so we went early before our 2nd class & studied patho for 2 hours. I feel a teeny bit better after studying with him. As I said before, I ALWAYS do better when I group study. So we're planning on doing this every Tuesday. I also sent out an email to everyone else in the class to see who else would want to meet.
What I do find fun though is meeting new students every day. I love the way we're all going to stay together through the whole 5 semesters, I think that will create some great camaraderie.
It'll will be interesting to see how many of the 65 of us actually make it to graduation. We actually already lost one. A girl whose husband was transferred. One down....


Ok how are you supposed to prepare for NCLEX type of questions when you aren't even sure what you're supposed to be studying? Also, how can you study every night for Patho & still get all your other classes attended to? One of the 5th semester's told me yesterday that Patho is a weed out course, um yeah, I feel like I'm definitely being pruned :(

Sunday, January 22, 2012


Why do I feel like I'm the only one that doesn't know what the hell I'm doing?? I mean I have no CLUE what this stuff in my Patho book is talking about and short of reading EVERYTHING, how am I supposed to know it? Then I feel like even if I "learn" it, meaning I learn what she has on the power points, I really am not getting it. When she asks the NCLEX style questions, I am hard pressed to know what in the world she's talking about, this does NOT bode well for my first exam. I am COMPLETELY freaking out. Like seriously, I'm wondering what other careers I can entertain and what the hell did I do taking out a $10K student loan. I am losing it!!!! I am seriously thinking 5 classes plus a lab is just too much! Am I just being a wuss???

Browsing blogs...

Yep that's me. Sitting at my computer, browsing through my dashboard reading through blogs, when in actuality what SHOULD I be doing?? STUDYING!! I made sure to clean my house (well most of it) yesterday so I could purposely devote all of today to studying, but instead I am at the computer procrastinating. Oh & I can't remember if I mentioned it in my last blog post, but I just realized yesterday that I MISSED my first Professionalism in Nursing class!! I was looking over my schedule yesterday & I saw it said the first class was January 18th & I thought "Wait I don't remember going to that class on the 18th" & then I realized it's because I DIDN'T!!! I totally blanked on my first class. I'm not used to taking so many classes at once & I just didn't even realize it. In fact on the front of all my notebooks I've actually written the day, time and room number of my classes to remind myself. Guess I must have overlooked that one. Jeez! Thank God it wasn't a bigger class!! Get it together Candi. Ok guess I'm going to get off here & do some studying!! :)

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Feeling a little better...

So things have been so hectic, I really haven't had the time to blog like I've wanted to about school. As I said before I was a little concerned about Patho, but I was just overwhelmed with the amount of stuff I needed to do with having 4 classes. Well actually 4 classes & a lab (I'm pretty sure the most I've ever taken). BUT so far I'm pretty much on track (I hope). I even got a praise from my online teacher for "encouraging" people to stay on deadline, lol. Uh yeah, I can't depend on them, either they get it turned in or they get left out! No, just kidding, I don't want anyone to get behind or to get a bad grade, so I'm glad everyone got their posts in.
With Patho I was a little concerned b/c basically all the teacher has done is give us some power points, read over them and that's it. No teaching really. But I talked to my friend who is in the semester ahead of me & she said she just thinks that the teacher just really doesn't like having to review this stuff, so she doesn't really get into that much, but that as time goes on that she gets much better & that she thinks she is a really good teacher. So that was encouraging. Also, she just told me that she just studied what was on the power points, so that was encouraging as well, that way I don't get bogged down trying to decipher and understand EVERYTHING in all 10 of those chapters. I've taken 7 of the quizzes & have until next week to take the other 3, but I'm sure I'll get those done this weekend.
Gerontology is going to be a good class once we get into it. The teacher encourages discussion, which I like, but I have to say 3:15 minutes for one class is EXTREMELY long. I just realized the other day that since I'm only taking these classes once a week, instead of a normal twice a week class that they are extra long. Phew, time can sort of drag in Gero, but it flies by in Patho.
My online class is going well, the only thing I need to do in there is make sure I don't miss any deadlines. I started to go to bed the other night & realized that I hadn't posted my summary!! Scary!! I jumped out of bed & got it done in plenty of time, but I think I'm going to have to put stuff like that in my calendar on my phone. I downloaded this pretty cool calendar app called Jorte, so I just need to make sure I put all of my stuff in there.
Then there's Professionalism in Nursing, which we have our first class in there on Monday, so we'll see how that one goes. And we'll have our first Assessment lab this week as well. I finally got my stethoscope, my blood pressure cuff, pen light & tape measure, so I guess I'm good to go!!
I think I was a little unprepared for how many classes were going to require papers. It's a little overwhelming & I think I DEFINITELY should have waited until this summer to take my elective, but I'll make it through, at least I don't have to work on top of all of this!! Big thanks to my supportive husband & unemployment, lol. I am going to start my volunteer job though. I start that next Friday. I'll be working with the GYN doctor who comes to the clinic twice a month on Friday's. Hopefully that will turn into a long term thing & I can learn a lot from working there.
Anyyyyhooooo. I guess that's it for now about school.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Ok, Ok...

Ok so I know everyone has said it before but DANG am I skerred!! Today was my first Patho class & to say it was overwhelming is probably accurate. It wasn't so much with the amount of content, but with the WAY you're supposed to learn it. I am MUCH better at memorization, but this actually applying it, I don't think I've got that yet. Of course at this point, ON THE FIRST DAY, I don't even have anything memorized & I probably should have. But I went ahead & printed off all the power points, so now I can go ahead & go through the chapters & do some outlines & make some flashcard, which I've never used before but I think will greatly help me. I'm thinking flashcards with the definition on the front & an application of it's use on the back will probably benefit me the most. Another thing I'm not used to is the lack of information on the power points. They're more like outlines themselves. I guess they're like guides & I need to use those to search out the information in the book & then add to them, which is ok with me too, I don't mind that at all. Another thing I'm kind of concerned about, which I'm going to email the professor, is my online class. It's my elective class & part of the class is that she split us up into groups & there's a leader, the rest of the group & a summarizer & it's exactly how it sounds. The leader starts the conversation, everyone else chimes in & then the summarizer "sums" it up. Well I just happen to be the summarizer this time and what's worrying me is that the only person that's posted is the leader!! Tomorrow is the LAST day for everyone to post. What do I do if I'm stuck with a bunch of duds in my group??!! I guess I'm going to go ahead & post to the group urging everyone to post, but this doesn't seem like a good way to get started :(.

I guess we'll see. Tomorrow is another day of getting up early, parking in BFE & getting my nursing degree on, lol. Woohoo!

Monday, January 16, 2012

School work...

Although school technically starts Tuesday, thanks to the internet we're supposed to already have 7 chapters read & 7 quizzes taken. Thankfully she extended having the quizzes done until Friday but I am already sweating this. I've taken three of the quizzes (which are open book by the way), which are only 10 questions each & let me just say, they are so hard! I mean even with the answers in the book I'm having a hard time figuring them out. On my quizzes so far it went like this - 90, 80, 70. I figured at that point I'd better just give up for the moment & go to bed!! Now luckily she has given us 2 hours to take these quizzes, so that we have time to look up the answers, but I swear the answers are NOT in the book. I know she asks the questions in the same format as most nursing classes, you know the "What answer is the MOST correct" format, but I swear even with the book open in front of me I CANNOT figure out what the freaking answer is!!! It's starting to worry me. And another thing is that she doesn't have it where we can see what answers we missed, but she said she is working on that. ALSO, I have this online class that's an elective and while I like it, it seems like it's going to be so much research & discussion boards & papers, goodness gracious and these are just TWO of the 4 classes plus one lab that I am taking. Now I see why everyone feels overwhelmed at the beginning. 47 quizzes in Path, ugh!!!

On a less whining note, I am totally looking forward to starting class tomorrow. And I am SO thankful that I have a friend who is a semester ahead of me. This really helps with knowing what to expect, knowing what books I don't need to bother to buy, buying the books I DO need from her at a cheaper price than others are paying AND she is so sweet, she's going to lend me some code I need to watch some video's. Now mind you this code alone is $80.00 if I had to purchase it. Also, I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of my glorious Raspberry stethoscope with my name on it :) & I also have to go tomorrow to get my nursing kit with my very own blood pressure cuff in it. Woohoo, my family is going to LOVE me practicing on them, haha.

So to sum how I am feeling. VERY NERVOUS, no beyond nerves, anxious. Excited. Happy. Overwhelmed. Worried. Hopeful. Proud. And confident. Not confident in ME, but confident that the One who brought me this far won't let me fall and that with LOTS of hard work, dedication and commitment that I can and will DO THIS!!

Now on to the important stuff, what to wear tomorrow to my first day of class. ;)

Thursday, January 12, 2012


OH MY GOODNESS!! Guess who has SEVEN chapters to read in Pathophysiology and who has SEVEN freaking quizzes to take, ALL before next Tuesday?????????? Seriously? Lady I haven't even stepped foot in your classroom. Are you kidding? Am I being punked? No, seriously, did I mention I don't even have the book yet?? Oh and this online class, although you are a bit tedious, I think I'm going to love you. Or maybe it's just love at first site but the real you will come out later & I'll end up hating you as well. As for health assessment, I'm still trying to figure out exactly what you are. I mean you're obviously important, you even have a lab that comes with you, but still, I'm trying to figure you out.

And guess what? Today was only orientation!!

Lord help me!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll love ya tomorrow....

Guess what?? TOMORROW IS ORIENTATION!!!!!!! Woohoo. And I got the text today saying my student loan refund is on it's way. So now I can get my books, my nursing kit, my adorable school supplies, my clicker & my raspberry stethoscope. Yeay!! I'm so excited woowee & I just can't hide it no, no, no no, I'm about to lose control & I think I like it....ok I've got a grip now. Seriously though I am super excited!!! :)

**Edit - Ok, so I picked out my outfit, lol. I'm going with a little bit dressy, just for tomorrow of course. Maybe I'll take a picture & post it :)**

Monday, January 9, 2012

One more day!!

One more day & then orientation. I have been debating what to wear. Do I dress up? Do I go casual with jeans & my Blarvard shirt that I got for Christmas? What did you wear for your orientation? Speaking of things to wear, I am so glad that we don't have to wear our hideous scrubs this semester, that gives me like 6 months to lose some weight before I have to don the all white ensemble. UGH!!! I can do it, I NEED to do it. I cannot wear that outfit at the weight I am, I will look like the Stay Puff Marshmallow Woman!!! Gross!! I mean seriously, white? I don't understand, our school colors aren't white, why not the school colors? Whatever. Anyhoo, ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooooooooohooooooooooo

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Hardship license....

So it's official, we got the approval today for my son's hardship license. Woohoo!! Now he can drive him & his sister to school!! Yeay!! Of course school starts the 17th & wouldn't you know it there wasn't an opening for the stupid driving test until the 18th :(. Luckily though I have some really great friends that will help me out until then & of course Eugene works 2 days on 2 days off, so it'll work out. Hopefully there won't be a problem with him passing the test, I'd hate to have to kill him! There shouldn't be a problem though, he's a really great driver.

I ordered one of my books for school :) Can't wait to get it. It's just Nursing Trends, but I am looking forward to even that. I mean what do I know about nursing trends? So that should be pretty interesting. It's an online class, the only one I have. I'm not really big on online classes. I had a math class online but it was pretty straightforward, the teacher just basically recorded himself teaching the class. We watched it, did the homework & took the tests. I like that style. But the style where you have to read something & then read what other people posted & then comment on their posts. I'm not too sure about that one! 3 more days & then orientation!!!!! Yeay!!!

Friday, January 6, 2012


Ok so I am totally working on trying to get this stupid video that I did forever ago uploaded. I want to get this working before school actually starts b/c I want to start doing more vlogging & less blogging. Well about nursing school anyway. It's getting close. I have orientation on Wednesday & I can't wait. I am kind of worried though b/c I am waiting on my student loan to come through before I buy the bulk of my stuff, but some of these things I'm supposed to have like by the end of the month (stethoscope being one) & I haven't even ordered it yet. Hopefully I can just order expedited shipping & it will be here on time. Oh yeah & that clicker too. I'm supposed to have it purchased & registered by the 28th. But luckily they sell those at the school bookstore, so hopefully that won't be a problem. I like this idea of renting books. I found a really great site & have rented one of my books for $22.00! That's a big savings AND when you're done with it they send you the return label & everything, you don't even have to pay to send it back. Very cool. These next few days are totally just like wait mode. I have no job, the kids went back to school & I'm just waiting. I think I'll take Zazzy's advice & get my house really clean. That at least will be one thing off my mind when I start school. There's nothing worse than knowing you have cleaning to do on top of a million other things. Or at least there's not for me, I hate having a dirty house hanging over my head while I'm trying to concentrate on other things. Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to wait I go... :)

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Cutting it close!!

When it comes to my acceptance into nursing school I am NOT a procrastinator as with everything else in my life, so today I have to fax off all my stuff (driver's license, Life Support Card, labs etc.) off to someplace in order to cement my acceptance. When might you ask is the deadline for this? The 6th. This is the ONLY thing I've cut so close, whew. Also, I was looking at my list of things I need to get as far as books & stuff are concerned & I have to get a clicker??? What the heck is a clicker & why do I need one. Are we going to be taking our tests in game show style? Apparently is it supposed to help keep our attention during lecture by "polling" us? Weird, but this is what it looks like:
Does anyone else use these? I am excited to find out exactly how they work. Can't wait!!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Bye Bye 2011!!!

January 1, 2012 THIS IS THE YEAR I BEGIN THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my excitement is just off the charts, I'm sure you haven't noticed. Today I was thinking just how truly blessed I am. For Christmas my thoughtful husband bought me the BEST gift ever. What is it? A new laptop to use for school? Nope. The raspberry stethoscope I am drooling over? Nope. A new heavy duty backpack? Nope. The best thing my husband got me for Christmas was this:
My first official school shirt!!!


How sweet & thoughtful was that? I know to other people it may not seem like a lot but to me school means everything. I posted a picture of it on my FB & my nephew said "I saw your new school shirt, are you actually having to go to campus?" And I said "Yep" & he said "Aw it's like your a college student" haha, which of course I AM!! And that reality really sunk in today. I am going to be a full fledged University student. And what sunk in was not that I was going to school, technically I've been in school for the last 2 years, but what hit me was that I am going to be a full time college student. And at 39 years old, with 2 kids, I think we all know that not everyone gets that kind of opportunity. So what really got me was how truly blessed I am to have a husband who is willing to work his butt off these next two years to help me achieve something that would have been so much harder without him. And honestly I'm not even sure how possible it would've been without him. So today on January 1, 2012 I am THOROUGHLY thankful that I am going into this new year with a husband that is so thoughtful, loving and hard working. A man that's willing to sacrifice for me to have the opportunity I need to better my life and in turn our lives together. And I couldn't ask God for a better spouse if I tried. I thank the Lord for small favors all the time, but Eugene is a big one and I am SO thankful for him! Now bring on school so I can wear my new shirts. Yeah he bought me two, one short sleeve & one long sleeve :)