"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Monday, December 31, 2012

Enjoying my break...

Still have a several more weeks before I start school & I'm always surprised by how quickly I decompress after school's out.  Of course this semester was pretty relaxed in the first place so I guess that's why it was easy.  I have done nothing since the break.  Well, that's not true, I did get together with 2 of my other nursing buddies & their significant others for dinner one night, that was nice.  It was interesting because I really like the two girls, they are very sweet.  But after we left the restaurant I asked my hubby what he thought about them & he said "They aren't someone I would see you hanging out with."  It was an interesting observation, b/c he was probably correct.  Those two particular girls are very smart, sweet & on the shy side & I am about as far from that as you can get (well not the smart part ;).  But, like I said, I really like them alot & we had a great dinner. I like getting to know my classmates on a more personal basis. 

My kids are out of school until the 8th, so for now I'm enjoying hanging out with them, but I know once they go back & the hubs goes back to work, that I'll be ready to go back too.  Until then I'm just hanging out & enjoying my fam, b/c I know that next semester is going to be wild!!

Hope everyone has a safe & happy New Year!!


Tuesday, December 18, 2012

In memory of Sandy Hook

Charlotte Bacon, 6
Rachel D'Avino, 29
Olivia Engel, 6
Dylan Hockley, 6
Dawn Lafferty Hochsprung, 47
Jesse Lewis, 6
Ana Marquez-Greene, 6
Grace McDonnell, 7
Anne Marie Murphy, 52
Emilie Parker, 6
Noah Pozner, 6
Jessica Rekos, 6
Mary Sherlach, 56
Lauren Rousseau, 30
Victoria Soto, 27
Daniel Barden, 7
Josephine Gay, 7
Madeleine Hsu, 6
Catherine Hubbard, 6
Chase Kowalski, 7
James Mattioli, 6
Jack Pinto, 6
Caroline Previdi, 6
Avielle Richman, 6
Benjamin Wheeler, 6
Allison Wyatt, 6.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

1 year down....

1 1/2 more to go....

So, 2nd semester is IN THE BOOKS!  Here's the damage. 

Pharm - A, Research - A, Intro to Nursing Practice - B. 

All in all, I have to say, pretty good for someone that hardly ever went to class.  Seriously, although I love my program I will have to admit that some of these teachers need to invest in a class on "how to teach".  For our Pharm midterm & final, the professor gave us a list of questions that were in the data bank (277 for the midterm & 355 for the final) & said "Here's the questions, happy studying."  I promise you, I learned more from researching those questions than I learned in the whole class.  Since when did teaching become posting a ppt & then reading it in class??  How are you actually TEACHING me anything?  No need to go to class, I mean dang I can read a ppt for myself....BUT, it's done & over with now & I am finally on to 3rd semester!!! Well, not tomorrow or anything, we go back on January 21 I believe.  (Of course that's if we're still here with the world ending on 12/21/12 that is). 

Looking back on 2nd semester I am trying to think of some things I have learned.  Maybe a bit of information that I gleaned that I can pass along.  Ok here goes:

1. Pharm - There is NO WAY that you can learn all of the medications in that book.  BUT what you can learn is what certain types of drugs do.  What does a beta blocker do?  A calcium channel blocker?  An ACE inhibitor?  These are definitely things you should learn in Pharm.  And, if like me, your teacher doesn't teach you those things, then definitely make sure you look them up on your own. 

2. Research - Supposedly this is a necessary evil in nursing school but for me it was a slow, dull torture.  Kind of like a cut that's healing, it just throbs but doesn't really sting anymore.  It was painful in that boring, who gives a crap kind of way.  I suppose maybe I learned something?  I learned the difference between a qualitative and a quantitative article. My real thought is that this should be an online class.  I shouldn't have to drive an hour to hear about this stuff, and usually I didn't.

3. Fundamentals - Hmmm, fundamentals.  I don't really know what to say about this class.  It was ok? I learned how to put in a catheter and actually got to do one on a poor guy in the long term facility where I was. I mean I guess to me Fundamentals was a lot of common sense with a little bit of medicine mixed in.  It was pretty easy, I can't really say that I studied much in that class.  I liked the clinical part much better than the lecture part.  Everyone ahead of us says that we just don't realize how much we're actually learning until we get to next semester & then we have to put it all together, so we'll see. 

I have to say also that I am really liking my class mates.  Of course there are a few that I still haven't really ever talked to, but for the majority I really like them all pretty well.  We started a tradition where after each semester ends we go to this Mexican restaurant close to school to celebrate.  We had a great time & I'm really glad that I went.  I am totally looking forward to next semester, getting to have a REAL clinical in a REAL hospital and getting to know more of my classmates even better. 

For now though, I am going to try & relax and enjoy my Christmas break. 

I hope everyone else is having a great Christmas holiday as well!!


Saturday, December 8, 2012

Two more finals to go...

Monday is Pharm & Tuesday is Fundamentals and then semester 2 of nursing school is IN THE BOOKS!!  Soo excited that it's almost over.  I finally got my grade in research & after all of the little "projects" that she had us do I was able to pull off an A!!! My final grade came up to an 89.8, which gets rounded up to an A, whew, so excited!!

As of right now I have a 92 in Pharm and a 79.8 in Fundamentals.  So, I am hoping to keep my A in Pharm & I think it's pretty safe to say that I'm only going to pull off a B in Fundamentals, but hey that's better than a C (but yet not an A)!!  It's really my fault, I totally slacked in that class this semester. Ok, I'll be honest, I slacked in all my classes this semeter.  Well, not so much slacked, as didn't attend.  Our pharm teacher & our Fundamentals teacher put everything on PPT slides & then they would have us meet & they would just read over/go over the PPT's.  I'm sorry, but I don't need anyone to read the PPT to me, I can do that myself.  Therefore, I felt like if there was no teaching going on, then I didn't need to go to class, & I didn't.  I think in all total I only went to maybe 4 research classses and about half of my Pharm & Fundamentals class.  I mean seriously, if all of your info is on PPT's & all you're going to do is read the PPT to us, then just go ahead & make this an online class & put us out of our misery.  Especially those of us who have to drive an hour to class. 

We took our HESI last week (each semester we have one class where we have to take a HESI, which is indicative of how well you'll do on the NCLEX) and I have to say I was very pleased with my 86, which came out to a 1033 HESI score.  Seeing as you only need an 850 to pass and that 900 is "recommended", I am feeling pretty good about my score.  It's the exact same score as I made last semester on the HESI as well.  Last semester it covered Assessment & this semester it covered Fundamentals.  I have to admit though I am NOT looking forward to next semester's HESI, it's a Pharm one, boo!!!  Thank goodness our teacher gave us this great little book to study
I think it looks pretty darn helpful & you better believe I am going to be putting that sucker to use next semester (and probably the semester after that, and the semester after that, you get the picture)!!  

So, I guess I am going to hit the hay now & then get up bright & early tomorrow to hit it hard & heavy all day long so as to be ready for Pharm first thing Monday morning! Pray for recollection and I hope that everyone else is doing great on their finals!!

Blessings everyone,

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Getting a job....

Ok so, so far in my schooling career (well the nursing school part anyway) I have not had to work.  I have been blessed to be able to draw unemployment since I started school, but it looks like that might be ending soon, in which case I will need to get a job.  Since school next semester is M, T, W, (some Thursday's), F, that means it'll probably be better for me to find a weekend job, which is fine, I don't mind working BUT what I'm worried about is that this next semester coming up is our hardest semester.  It's the semester that everyone says NOT to work during, it's our MAIN weedout semester.  I know that a lot of people have to work, so that's not feasible for everyone, but everyone ahead of us that we talk to says if at all possible, DON'T work during 3rd semester.  I am kind of bummed because I was hoping that my unemployment would juuuuuust squeak by & get me through 3rd semester & then I was planning on getting a job anyway.  Anyhoo, my point is, getting a job, what should I do? 

Last summer I went through my CNA class & so now all I have to do is go & take the test to be able to work as a CNA, but we all know how I feel about working in LTC facilities.  Can I work in a hospital as a CNA?  If so, what would I be doing & do you make more $ working in a hospital?  I think Zazzy does this....Then of course there's always waitressing.  I was a waitress for about 7 years before I got into the medical field & I always made good money, plus it's a pretty brainless job, no stress, you just do your job, get your tips & go home.  Also, I have to consider who would be willing to work around my school schedule. 

So my question is, did you/do you work while in nursing school & if so doing what and for how many hours a week? 

Thanks for the input!!

Friday, November 23, 2012

How cute is this for a button?

So I've seen everyone with "buttons" for their blog & I want one too!  I'm not really sure how to make one, but this is the picture I want to use for it.  Isn't it cute!! We'll see how it turns out. 

**After an hour & a half working on it, I gave up** 

If any of my nice friends that know HOW to make a button would like to make one for me as a Christmas present I would soo appreciate it :D I wanted to put the title at the bottom so that I didn't cover up the scissors.

Friday, November 16, 2012

First clinical DONE & Roll Tide!

Yesterday was the last day of my first clinical and I can say with 110% assurance, that LTC is NOT where I want to work.  Basically all the nurses did ALL day was pass meds.  I mean seriously?  I honestly feel like working in that environment that I would lose just about any real nursing skills I had learned.  And not to offend anyone in that field, but really what good is going to school to learn ALL of this information to then just stand at a med cart & hand out meds all day?  Uh, no thank you!

I am so happy to have that part over & done with, and not because I didn't enjoy it, clinicals are actually my favorite part, but just because I am ready to move on!  Next semester is Med/Surg & OB & I can't wait to be in an actual hospital, doing real clinical stuff.  I am totally going to feel like a real nurse at that point (well 1/8 of a real nurse)!! I'm so excited that there's no break in between!

So the countdown to the end of my 2nd semester in nursing school is on.  Here's what I have left to do by December 11, which is our last day:

Critique 2 articles (1 quantitative, 1 qualitative) for Research  (11/24 - Got a 10/10!)
Turn said articles into a group project poster
Present our group pharm project (Ugh) (Went swimmingly!)
Make a concept map based on one of our clinical patient's dx (11/24 - Got a 10/10!)
Take our finals

That's not bad right?  I am SO excited that I am almost through with my 2nd semester! Next semester I'll be halfway DONE with nursing school.  I can't wait!!!!!!  Of course I'm kind of nervous too b/c next semester is when most people drop/flunk out.  It's our main "weed out" semester, & it kind of has me slightly terrified....

Oh well, all I can do is just do it!

Hope everyone has a great weekend.  My fam & I are heading to Tuscaloosa to watch Alabama play, ROLL TIDE BABY!!!!!!!!


Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Time keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping....

into the future...." I couldn't help myself :)
It's so weird when I look at the time keeper on the side of my blog, and watch as it just keeps getting less & less.  I think when I first put it on there I had like 800 something days before I graduate & now it's already down into the 500's!! Can you believe that many days have gone by since I've been in school?  I can't!!
I was talking to my nursing bestie yesterday & we were talking about the upcoming semesters & I was blabbing on & I said something about two more summers & he goes "We only have this summer left with no school".  What?!  Can it be I only have one torturous summer left!! ?  Yes for those of you that don't know, I don't like the fact that our school doesn't go straight through the summers like some other programs.  So I was very excited to realize that this will be my LAST summer of freedom!! Don't get me wrong, I loves me some summers.  I mean who doesn't love days that are longer, lounging at the beach (on the lake), riding in boats, tubing, swimming & getting their tan on?  I certainly do!  But I also feel like as a nurse working 12 hr shifts that I will still be able to do all of those things on my off days.  When I read other nursing blogger's blogs it seems like they all lead very full lives outside of their jobs & that is just one more reason why nursing appeals to me.

Speaking of school.  Guess who got their very first OFFICIAL F yesterday?? Yep, you guessed it, ME!!  It was in Intro & it was on Bowel/Urinary elimination/Oxygenation/Circulation/Pain/Stress & Coping.  Guess who only studied for MAYBE four hours the night before the test?  Ok, obviously you know it was me.  So, while everyone else was complaining about how bad they did & how long they studied, I just chalked it up to, me being a complete procrastinator & realized that next test I will HAVE to do better.  So far with that grade bringing me down, I now am sitting at a 75 in that class and besides the fact that I CAN'T afford a C in that class (it's a 5 hour class for Pete's sake!), 75 is JUUUUST passing.  As I'm sure most of you know, 74 = failing (well at least in all the program's I know of).  Am I teensy bit stressed?  Honestly?  Only a tiny bit.  I don't have any doubt that I will do MUCH better on the final, plus we have other little things the professor's have built in to boost our grades, so I can't say that I'm that worried, but dang it if I didn't paint myself into a pretty little corner.  As I said, I CAN'T get a C.  I HAVE to have at least a 3.0 to get into the master's program that I'm looking at, but a 3.2 would give me a much better chance.  So guess which girl is going to be studying her buttumpkus off for the final?  Seriously I don't know why I keep making you guess.
Anyhoo, my kids are at school & my hubby is at work so it's time for me to get some serious school work done.  Heading up to the library right now.  Does anyone else feel like they get much more done when they're at the library?  I'm thinking I should seriously give my computer room a "library" makeover.  Kind of hard to do when my husband's weight lifting equipment is in here, but maybe I could move that to the spare bedroom & do it.  I think that would be great, maybe a project for Christmas break in between semesters?  Come back next semester with my own little cozy library room.  Then maybe I could stay home & get some stuff done?  Hmmm, worth considering.
Ok, hope you all have a great rest of the week.  Oh btw, tomorrow is my LAST clinical of the semester, WOOHOOOOO!! So excited to get that done!!


Saturday, November 10, 2012

Yay for miscalculations!!

So last night as I was taking my Research test and working on my care plan for Intro I got to thinking about my grades.  I thought I had 2 high C's & an A, but after talking to my friends about adding in the extra little points that we get for doing small assignments, I decided to actually calculate my grades. Lo & behold I have now have 2 B's & an A yay!!  And the B's are actually pretty high, so if I can pull off some much better test scores for the next couple of tests then I think I can actually pull straight A's this semester!  And boy do I need it.  Yesterday at lunch I was talking to two of my nursing friends & we started talking about getting into school.  We all agreed that NONE of us got in based on our GPA's.  The minimum GPA to get into our program is 2.8.  At our table, my bestie Gregory had 2.8, I had 2.9 & my friend Kristina had a 3.0.   Now mind you my GPA was so low b/c they averaged in my grades from when I went to school 1000 years ago & I didn't give a crap about school back then.  The year & a half that I had to take my pre-reqs I actually had like a 3.5 GPA :(.  So right now as it stands I think I have a 2.894, but I NEED a 3.2 by the time I graduate.  Most of the schools I'm interested in for my master's program require at LEAST a 3.0 to get in, but the one I'm heavily leaning toward you need a 3.2 in order to even have a fair chance.  BUT if you have a 3.2 AND passing scores on the GRE then you are automatically accepted.  Sooo, I am shooting for a 3.2 by the time I graduate.  Of course if you have the 3.2 you don't have to take the GRE, but if I can pass the GRE along with my 3.2 & get automatic acceptance, then heck I might as well at least try to take it.  Even if I don't get the required scores it won't hurt me.  

Anyhoo, back to school.  The social dynamics of school are very interesting, I see groups forming & reforming all the time.  In our 2nd semester I have talked to MANY more people that I never talked to last semester and have even been put into groups that I would have NEVER picked myself.  It makes me wonder though, how many of these people will I ever really talk to again once we graduate?  In my pre-reqs I made 2 very good friends.  We studied together EVERY week, sometimes twice a week, but after we left we hardly ever talked to each other again.  I just heard from one of them the other day, but it had been almost a year.  Of course I told her that we needed to get together & I do mean it, I really enjoyed our friendship & we all really helped each other get through school.  It's just interesting that people can be so much a part of your life for a short period of time & then nothing.

Anyway, guess I need to get on & start my study guide for Tuesday's Intro test.  Gotta make at LEAST a B on this one to bring my grade up.  I NEEDS me 3 A's this semester!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Classes cancelled...

So drove all the way to school today for my 2 classes only to have them cancelled because the power was out.  The bad part is that classes were cancelled and we all left around 9 am and guess what time the power came on?  RIGHT AFTER WE LEFT!!  So, not only did I waste time, which is ok, but I wasted money & gas, which is way more expensive than my time!! :(  Ugh...I wish I didn't live so far from campus...

Anyhoo, I'm getting close to the end of the semester & things are coming up, namely group projects.  Can I just say how much I detest group projects?  Well, actually that's not true.  I only dislike the group projects where you don't get to pick your groups.

Conquering Group Projects

This semester we have 2 group projects due.  One is in Pharm, which luckily we have a great group for that one.  The other is in Research & it's not that that group sucks, it's just that we all have a really hard time making a group decision & I already told Gregory that I REFUSED to step up & be the leader.  It seems like I always end up being the leader of my groups & I just was NOT going to do that this time.  Luckily in our Pharm group we pretty much all just contribute no problem.  The other thing I don't like about group projects is that the other people don't do it exactly as you would do it and for Type A, anal personalities, it is a teensy bit nerve wracking.  I mean you look at the PP & think, hm, I probably would have done it like this...but I guess you just have to let it go and thank God that someone in your group first of all, knows how to do a PP, and 2nd offered to do it! I am LOST when it comes to making PP's.  I've never made one before & so I'm always thankful when someone else knows how to do it.  The only good thing about doing group presentations is that the class gets to "grade" each other & we're all usually pretty lenient.  I mean we want to help each other out as much as possible....well most of us do.

So, this conversation brings me to Research.   Does anyone else have to take this class??  Can I just say how boring I think this class is?  I seriously think they should make this an elective class, for those people who are actually thinking about pursuing research, which ain't me!! If I wanted to sit behind a desk all day reading a bunch of articles then I would have stayed as an office manager.  No thanks!! I want to get all one on one with  my patient's.

Well, anyhoo, I guess I'm about to head up to the library & do some studying so that the day isn't a total bust.....

Hope everyone else has a great week!!

***Addendum - I do realize that research is much needed & that as nurses we use evidence based practices with our patient's, what I mean about not wanting to do research is that I don't want to do it full time & I don't care about the difference between Simple Random Sampling & Stratified Random Sampling.  I DO think we need to practice based on the latest research that comes out though :D

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Halfway through semester 2....

So today was the halfway mark in clinicals, three down, three to go and we've only got like 7 more weeks until semester 2 is over, but I have to make a confession.  I still don't feel like I know a darn thing!  I just don't feel like I'm studying enough & learning enough.  I mean seriously, I just don't see myself being able to see a patient any time soon, hell when it came to assessing my patient I had to go to last semester's book & look up some things to assess (& I wasn't the only one)......Am I ever going to feel like I actually know something?

Please tell me there are other nurses out there who felt like this at first, but now they are seasoned nurses who know EVERYTHING!!  Ok, I know you don't know everything, but at least you know stuff, right?  Nerves are kicking in!!  Maybe I should study a bit more you say?  I agree!!  Thanks for the advice...


Thursday, October 18, 2012

First "true" clinical day...

Today was my first "real" clinical day.  I was able to work alone (which I much prefer) with my patient and I have to say I REALLY enjoyed this.  Of course, although I was the only one responsible for my patient I was sure to help out my fellow students when they needed it.  And I have to say they are all pretty great!  We have 7 people in our clinical group & I am so glad that we all get along & help each other out, I feel really blessed to be with this group of people.  Of course like I said in my last post, our actual "hands on" patient time today was only around an hour & a half. Once again we were in pre-conference from 6:30-8:00, we then had to go & sort out our medications which took until about 9:30 for all of us to get done & by the time I got my patient out of activity & finished her assessment it was 11:00, which is their lunch time.  So then  about 11:30 or so we all went to lunch where we stayed until 1:00!!!  Guess what time post conference is supposed to start?  Yep, you guessed it 1:00.  So we just had time to go back to our patient's, perform their afternoon vitals & then it was back down to post conference & then home.  Again, I'm not complaining, just stating.  I was much more prepared today for the assessment.  Last week I was kind of floundering around trying to remember all my assessment stuff, but today I made myself a list of "tests" to perform, my precious patient was so cooperative.  When I came back in the afternoon to tell her bye she said "Are you going to come back tomorrow and do all of this stuff over again?" lol.  I assured her that I wasn't but that someone else might come & bug her.  She was so pleasant & cooperative & funny as heck!  All in all it was a good day & I'm looking forward to my next day.  Unfortunately next week I don't get a patient, I have to follow the wound care nurse around.  As I stated before, I loved having my own patient, I am not big on "shadowing" people & I'm afraid that's all next week is going to be.  Fortunately the people that followed her around today did say that she let them change a dressing.  Jeez, I would hope so.  I guess I'll just have to see when I get there.

Two days down, 4 more to go!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Fall break & first clinical...

This week is our wonderful miniscule fall break.  We actually only get 2 days of fall break, but luckily our teacher gave us a break & is giving us Friday as well, yay! Of course in the middle of our break is our 2nd clinical on Thursday.  Speaking of which, last week we had our first clinical and I have to say it kind of went how I thought & it kind of didn't.
First of all, the actual "hands on" patient time was shorter than I expected seeing as our professor kept us in pre-conference from 6:30 to almost 8:00 & then we were in lunch from 11:00 to like 12:30, and when we went back upstairs we had to report BACK downstairs for post conference at 1:00.  So much for 6:30-2:30 & a 30 minute lunch.  Now don't get me wrong, I am TOTALLY not complaining about this, actually I was very happy with this arrangement, I'm just mentioning it.  Second, it wasn't as boring as I thought but there was quite a bit of walking around checking to see if other people needed our help, especially since we had to share a patient who just so happened to sleep ALL day.  Our poor little patient doesn't sleep very well at night so they sleep all day instead, so needless to say we didn't have to do much for that person.
Now to the bad part.  As I stated, for the first week we didn't have one patient to ourselves, we actually shared a patient with a partner. Sooo, that meant dividing up the clinical forms we had to turn in, which is fine, he did the meds/care plan & I did the rest.  Now this would have been honkey dorey except for the fact that I didn't think about both of us turning in the same paperwork, I mean I just didn't see the point in the redundancy & so I let my partner turn it in and I didn't.....Did you hear me? I DID NOT turn in my clinical paperwork for the first week!!!  So a couple of days after it was due I started thinking about that & I messaged my fellow students & asked them what they did & OF COURSE, they all turned in separate paperwork.  Which means....I am the ONLY one that didn't turn in my clinical paperwork!!!  Oh joy of joys.   I mean seriously!!  I don't know what I was thinking!! So I sent our professor an email & told her my rationale for not submitting my paperwork, to which she replied "I didn't receive anything in the dropbox from you.  I guess you'll just have to email it to me since it's late & the dropbox is closed".  Obviously she didn't read my email at all, but hey, as long as she let me submit it, that's all I care about.  I had about a day of freaking out thinking that I wasn't going to be able to turn it in at all, so I was very relieved to get the email from her & I promptly emailed that bad boy right over.   Whew.... crisis averted (this time).

On a different note, I have to say that I'm not sure if the teachers all got together & decided to torture us this semester but this semester has almost been like having all my classes online.  Now online classes are great, I have no problem with them, but it's so weird because there will be something due & the teachers will just post it online & if you don't check that stuff often well guess what?  You missed it.  It's kind of like a scavenger hunt figuring out if something is due or not.  Are we the only ones going through this or is this normal behavior for nursing professors? I mean seriously, if you're going to put all your lectures online & only use class time for questions then go ahead & make this a hybrid class & stop torturing us with a 3 hour class full of nothingness.....Speaking of which, one of those classes is Pharm and can I just say that I am NOT looking forward to calculating meds?? Is med calculation really that hard when you're a nurse?  Just wondering if I should be studying this much harder (ok at all, you're right I haven't looked at it at all).

Anyhoo, that's what is going on in this part of the world.  How are things in your neck of the nursing school world?

Tuesday, October 9, 2012


Ok so for all of my nursey students/followers or for anyone that wants to read a REALLY great blog.  You seriously need to head over to "Life in the Clinic" and follow it.  This is written by a fantastic pediatric NP! She writes about interesting cases, frustrating job experiences and just every day things that us nursing students will probably one day deal with, plus she pretty stinking smart! So, seriously, why are you still reading this blog?  Head over there RIGHT NOW & check it out!!! :D

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Frustration beyond frustration!!!

Honestly I just don't even know where to begin.  Just trying to type this post makes me want to pull my hair out!! Here goes anyway, in Pharm we have this teacher that lectures instead of teaches.  Lecturing is all fine & well if you're teaching PSYCHOLOGY but this is a SCIENCE course with actual working parts of the body and responses that we need to UNDERSTAND.  Don't just lecture to us, tell us to read the 26 chapters & then expect us to teach this to ourselves!!  I have literally been on the verge of tears AND in tears all day today over the frustration that is our Pharmacology class.  Then on top of no explanation of what we're supposed to be learning, we only have FOUR, count them FOUR grades in the whole class & two of them are the midterm & the final.  So what do we get to study for the midterm?  A test bank of 270 possible questions that we have to answer ourselves and then HOPE that we have chosen the correct answer & study them!  Am I being crazy?? Is this a good way to learn/study???????  THEN to top it off, he posts these other questions & gives us the answers & the rationale's with them & we're all getting exciting thinking this is what we've been waiting for, only to learn that these are the wrong questions.  UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Where do I even start?? I guess I just start & pray for the best......

Lost in Pharm....

So after many frustrating posts on FB between our classmates, I just finally sent him a message and asked him why he couldn't just give us the answers/rationale's to the test bank he expects us to study, just like he did for the other questions & lo & behold an hour later we FINALLY had the answers/rationale's.  I felt like a 2 ton weight had been lifted off my shoulders!! So NOW we can study the questions knowing we have the correct answers and the rationale's for why they are correct.  Whew, at least now I don't see an F in my future!!

Thanks for your sympathy, lol.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Don't like the drama...

So after my last post there was definitely some drama that ensued over the whole sharing fiasco.  One girl (one of the non-sharers) even blocked me from seeing content on her FB, lol.  Probably because when she posted "Will.Never.Happen.Again" I posted under that "Agreed".  I mean seriously, people's selfishness never ceases to surprise me BUT what I did learn from this experience is that some people need to be kept at arm's length.  I try really hard to stay OUT of the drama, which unfortunately there is plenty of.  I just don't understand why though.  Believe me nursing school is hard enough without creating extra drama.  I got some really good advice from a 3rd semester.  She told me to stay away from certain people and stay off of FB!! Well, although I do like that advice, our class communicates a lot through FB.  We have a specific FB page just for our semester & then we have one for the nursing program.  It really is a great tool for sharing info, asking questions, etc., but it does lend to a slight bit of drama/angst.  Oh technology.

Ok, on to other things...

This Wednesday we have a flu clinic at a local Nissan plant and we get to practice giving SHOTS!! Woohoo! I'm so excited.  I can't wait to start sticking me some people, lol.  At least with this practice I can go into a clinical setting & not have to worry about it being my first time.  Don't like that we have to wear our yucky white scrubs, but still excited to be doing something clinical.  It'll be my first real nursy thing ;D  Of course we start clinical rotations two weeks from now & we'll get to do lots of nursy things, but I'm afraid with it being in a nursing home it'll be more like lots of CNA things.

Anyhoo, gotta run & study for my 2nd Intro test tomorrow.  Hopefully it'll be better than the last one, which I didn't study for at all.

Hope everyone has a great week!


Saturday, September 29, 2012

To share or not to share, THAT is the ?

Ok, so in our Pharm class we have a midterm coming up.  So the teacher gives out this long (275 questions) study guide that has all the questions from the test bank that could possibly be on the test.  Problem is the questions are unanswered, which means mucho time spent looking up the answers to all these questions, which in turn means MAJOR TIME!  So, my bestie & I decide (ok  it may have been his original idea) that we need to contact a few of our friends & see if they want to divide & conquer.  Great idea right?  Well, what was supposed to be a small group of about 7 or so people blossomed into 25 people (which is almost HALF the class) & then another group that totally split off on their own.  I mean once the word got out it was like "Oh well so & so would want to do this too) & of course the more people the less questions we each have to answer.  Sooo, we ended up with about 16 questions a piece, which isn't too bad.  I mean I think it took me like an hour,  maybe less, to get all of mine answered.  So far so good right?  Well, sort of... At the point that it became half of the class I suggested that we just open it up to the whole class so that everyone could participate, but there were a few people who didn't want to do that.  They said that we didn't want to include everyone b/c we didn't know if everyone would take it as seriously.  So we didn't open it up to everyone, thereby excluding half of the class.  So we got all of our questions done & in direct conversation with a few of the people in the group we decided that it was no big deal if we shared the answers with anyone that may want them.  I mean there were other groups as well & we talked about comparing answers to make sure that we got them right.  So today's the day.  We got all of the questions back & lo & behold I offered someone who wasn't in the group the list of questions & all hell broke loose.  The main girl who didn't want to share the questions spoke right up.  She said if she had known that she was doing all the work for the rest of the class then she wouldn't have done it.  I'm sorry since when is 16 out of 276 questions "ALL of the work"???  Seriously?  Then her nursing BFF chimed in & said she didn't want to share her 16 answers either, really?  I couldn't believe it.  So I sent out a mass email to everyone involved & basically said that as nurses we will be expected to work as a team & like or not this group of students is our "team" for the next year & a half.  I said that whoever didn't want me to share their 16 questions that I wouldn't, but that I just figured we'd want to help each other out.  Well, only one other girl chimed in saying that she didn't want to share her answers.  I have to admit, I was SORELY disappointed.  I mean I could understand NOT sharing if say we had opened up the questions to the whole class & then someone chose NOT to participate and THEN asked for the answers, but we didn't even give everyone a chance to participate, so why exclude them??  Those three were like "We don't want to do all the work for everyone else in the class."  Ok, I get that, believe me I do, but some of those people who WOULD have liked to have participated didn't even get the chance, so why punish them???  To say I was upset is an understatement.  If you can't share 16 questions to help out your fellow classmate then how are you going to be if we're working together on the hospital floor????  Needless to say, I do NOT want them on the floor working with me.

Ok, I'm stepping off of my soapbox now, what do you think?

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Totally nervous!!!

Tomorrow is my 2nd check off.  NG tubes/feeding tubes

& wound dressing. 

I am SO nervous after last weeks fiasco, I swear if I could just have a different teacher I would be better.  I know that these aren't that hard of skills but I get so nervous and then I start thinking "Gosh this seems too simple, you must be missing something" & then I start trying to add stuff that I don't need to add.  Ughhhh, NERVES!!!!!  The teacher did say that the most important thing (of course) is not to break the sterile field, which I'm pretty good at paying attention to that, but I just hope I don't blank.  When the teacher starts asking pointed questions I just tend to blank, even if I know the answer.  But this week I have practiced & read all the sheets (as opposed to last week) so I shouldn't be surprised by any of her questions.  We'll see.  

At 10:15 tomorrow say a prayer for me!!!

Goodnight peeps.

***Update*** Did SOOOO much better this week than last week. At one point I did break sterile field but it was no big deal, I just told her I would start all over.  No tears this week, yay!!  She did help break the mood a little by having the Sim tell me "No" when I told her I was going to change her dressing, lol.  Then when I was cleaning her wound she had the Sim doing all kinds of moaning, totally broke the serious mood.  Glad that check offs are OVER for this semester!! Now bring on the clinicals!!

Thursday, September 20, 2012

First skills check off of 2nd semester - Epic Fail!!

Oh my Lord, could I have been any more ridiculous in my first check off????? And lest you think I'm exaggerating let me replay the scenario:

"Hello Mr. Brown, my name is Candi and I'm going to be your student nurse today.  First of all I am going to check your blood glucose" (did that no prob).  "Ok, now I'm going to give you your insulin."  So I go with the whole NRN steps.  I draw the 10 mL of Regular, then add the 8 mL of NPH to equal the 18 mL that is on the Rx.  At which point the teacher says "That's only 17 mL, you need 18".  First of all, it was NOT only 17, I can see, but I wasn't going to argue so I proceeded to pick up the vial to make sure it was 18 mL's (which was actually 19 but whatev).   At this point I hand her back the syringe so that she can check to see that it's now 18 & she goes "It's 18 but you added R, not N" (with a look that says "You're a complete moron".)  Oh holy hell!!! So at this point I am now totally flustered & start freaking out!  She goes "And also, since you put N into the R vial, so what are you going to do now?"  I mean seriously, I lost it at this point.  All confidence I had in what I was doing went straight out the window! I said "I guess I should just start over huh?" and she said "Yeah that would be good, and what would you need to do with the vial of R?"   Obviously, throw it out, which means I wasted money.  So I proceed to push the fake meds into the garbage can so that I can start over, well guess what?  My needle came out in the garbage can!! After I emptied the syringe into the garbage can I looked at the end of my syringe & noticed that my freaking needle fell off!!  I mean WTH!!  Well, at this point I'm sure you know what happened (well those with experience will).  It was a stupid safety needle! When I ejected the medicine into the garbage can the needle retracted.  Hell I didn't even realize that it did that!!!  So, now as you can imagine I am DOUBLY flustered.  So there I am standing over the garbage can thinking "What the hell do I do?" when she puts me out of my misery & goes "That's a safety needle, it retracted into the syringe."  I go "Oh, I didn't even realize that they did that.  Can I use one of the extra's that is on the table?" & she goes "Yes" at which point I chuck the used syringe IN THE GARBAGE CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  At this point I'm sure she is thinking I am the BIGGEST moron ever & she goes "You just threw a needle into the garbage can."  Ok, it was at this point I was just praying that Tennessee would experience a freak earthquake & that said crack from the earthquake would open up right under me & swallow me whole.  I IMMEDIATELY picked up the syringe from the garbage can & said "Oh my gosh I would NEVER throw a needle in the garbage can, EVER!"  So I proceed with the rest of the check off & although the rest wasn't as bad as that, it was still pretty bad.  I mean once all that happened I was  DONE!! I should have just gone  home, went back to bed & come back on a different day.  Regardless of all those shinanigans I did manage to pass somehow, but Lord KNOWS I will be studying MUCH harder for next weeks check off.  Pray for me!!!


Monday, September 17, 2012

Why Pharm??

So as I was sitting in Pharm class today thinking that I should have TOTALLY skipped I just couldn't help but shake the feeling that I was wasting my time.  Now, I'm not 100% sure that that's true, it was just the feeling that I had.  I mean seriously, who KNOWS this stuff besides pharmacists?  I seriously doubt if I were to walk up to a nurse working on the hospital floor & ask them what the difference between a muscarinic agonist & antagonist were they would have NO clue what I was talking about.  Please tell me how, exactly, this is supposed to help me be a nurse?  Now, don't get me wrong, I do find Pharm very interesting (the book more than the actual class) but I just can't help thinking that this is not "real" nursing.  As a matter of fact I know for certain that some nursing programs don't even include Pharm, so why am I being tortured?  Or should I say "Why are we being tortured?" because believe me I'm not the only one.  As a matter of fact this is a picture of our class today:

Ha! Totally kidding!! But I swear I know that some of us feel like this.  What about you?  Does your nursing program include Pharmacology?  Just a weird tidbit though, I also know of some LPN programs that don't even include Patho, now THAT I don't understand but whatev.  

Hope you guys had a great Monday!!!!


Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Would you like fries with that?

Today was it, the first test of my 2nd semester in nursing school and well, at least I passed.  I couldn't study. I just couldn't get into the groove and I never got around to really getting the information into my head.  It's one of those things were you get so overwhelmed that you don't know where to start so you just do nothing. That was me.  Fortunately I had taken the CNA class over the summer and so I had a pretty good idea of the answers.  Not enough for a B, but what's the saying "C's = degrees"?  Well C's don't equal a nurse practitioner degree, so I know I have to buck up & get a grip on these studies.  What I hate about the first test is that you never really know how to study for it.  You're not sure exactly how the questions are going to flow and so the first test is always the barometer, so it can only go up from here right?  I mean now I know what to expect and how to study, so the next test should be MUUUUCH better :D  Otherwise I may just have to go on down to Mickey D's and put in my application.  ;D

"Would you like fries with that?"

Thursday, September 6, 2012


My clinical group!!  And no I do not fix my hair & do my makeup before school.  I mean seriously, I get up early enough with doing all that stuff!!!

And btw that's my nursing bestie Gregory, the 3rd one from the left if your looking at the picture, which of course you are.  :D

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Week two of semester two...

Hmm, it doesn't feel like week two, honestly it feels like school hasn't even started yet.  Even though I've turned in one assignment & taken one quiz I am still behind.  Future note to self, do NOT plan any trips the week before & the week after classes start, especially BOTH.  I am so disoriented about my classes.  Today I went to school with my Pharm book, my Research book, my Dosage Calculations book and my lunch.  On the way to school I talked to Gregory & he then informed that today is a short day & the only class we have is Nursing Skills.  DUH!!  Thank goodness we have tomorrow off.  I HAVE to use that as a catch up day for sure!  I've got to get it together.  I have done 1% of the reading I should have gotten done by now and I am wiped!!  Thankfully my husband took my lab coat & scrub shirt to the cleaners to have them sew my patches on for me since this Thursday is our first day of having to wear our uniforms to clinical.  And about that, I'm sorry I just don't see the point.  Why is it necessary for us to wear our scrubs TO SCHOOL?  Do they think that once we actually start clinicals that if we're not in the habit of wearing them that we'll forget?  I mean who forgets to wear their uniform to work??? I am seriously considering taking my scrubs & changing into them once I get to school.  I just don't see myself walking around campus in those hideous things.  It would be different if they were cute, or were a more flattering color, but white scrubs, ugh.

Enough about that, I promise I'm going to pull it together & stop complaining, I just need a day to catch up, which will hopefully happen tomorrow.  I go to school M,T,TH & Friday, so I have Wed. off to catch up, can't wait for that to happen.

How is everyone else doing since school started??


Sunday, August 26, 2012

School day, school day, golden golden rule day!

So tomorrow starts the beginning of my 2nd semester of nursing school and I'll have to admit, I am terrified.  Just seeing the word Math breaks me out in severe hives and starts the nauseous feeling in my stomach.  I mean seriously.  17 Math chapters/quizzes!! I got into nursing so I wouldn't HAVE to do any more math but then here it is, back again.  I can already tell I'm going to worry myself to death over this!!  Then there's the EKG.  I don't think we learn that this semester but just reading my friends blog & seeing her talking about it gives me double hives.  I feel so lost and classes haven't even started  yet!!! Between Pharm & Research, I'm dreading this semester.  I'm starting to think this is just going to be an ongoing feeling at the beginning of each semester.  I guess I just need to remind myself of how nervous I felt at the beginning of last semester & of the fact that I did pretty well despite of myself.  I'm thinking an early bedtime tonight may be just what is needed.  Of course I guess need to watch the videos that the teacher has "recommended" we watch before tomorrow's class.  Ahh, and the fun has begun!

I did make it to the store & got some new ink for my printer (let the printing of schedules/syllabus' commence) and some Almond Joy creamer for those early mornings that I love so much.  Still haven't gotten any of the 4,672 books I need for this semester yet.  My student loan check doesn't come in until probably tomorrow so I am holding off until then to get my books & my scrubs.  Oh yeah & my backpack.  I'm starting to think a cruise the week before school starts wasn't such a good idea.  I hate feeling behind & this definitely put me there.  I guess all I can do is do my best to keep up until I actually get caught up.

Who else starts school tomorrow?  Have you already started studying?  Reading?  Watching the videos?  Nursing school, gotta love it.  Don't you?


Thursday, August 23, 2012

Frazzle Razzle RN guest post...

One of my first nursing bloggy friends was Rachel and today she is guest posting on this here little 'ol blog.  If you read this blog you probably already read hers, but if not then head on over there.  Again without further ado here is my 2nd guest post:

Hello everyone, my name is Zazzy and I'm an avid reader of Candi's nursing school blog and I'm honored she's chosen to have me host for a day while she's out relaxing in the sun having fun! (I wish you would have taken me in your suitcase CANDI :D)

I have two more semesters of my own to complete before I graduate this May from nursing school, and I also have a fun blog detailing my journey. You can read more at Frazzledrazzlern.blogspot.com

In the meantime while going to nursing school I've been gaining experience as a Certified Nursing Assistant (CNA) and I finally figured out a system that works for me. I was pretty disorganized when I first started and felt overwhelmed with not knowing what to do when and how to "real-time" chart within a timely manner.

My department is a surgical area and we have a few "cheat" or "brain" sheets we follow, so I'm going to just show you the main sheet that I like to use the most.

My cheat sheet is pretty basic in the sense it allows for ambulation information, pt. name, pt's nurse name, whether the pt. has had a bath or bed change, how much IN&OUTS (IN = Water they've consumed and OUT=urine/stool/emesis) the patient's had and of course all the vital information. On top of the right hand corner of my cheat sheet I like to hand write all of the other CNA's numbers of the phones they are carrying along with the RN's numbers too. These numbers are so amazingly important for when I need help in a quick manner, I just pull out my sheet and dial up another aide for help or if the patient needs pain meds I dial up the RN's ext.

My hope is that these sheets help others to get more organized and to document this along my journey to becoming a nurse.

The cheat sheet I follow for the first half of my day shift as a CNA 

The cheat sheet I follow for the second half of my day shift as a CNA

Thanks for that very informative post Zazz & thanks for posting here on my little ol' blog.


Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Guest Post...

So one of my favorite posters has generously written a post to keep you entertained and informed while I'm gone, so without further ado meet Sherry:

Hi, I'm Sherry!  A big southern welcome to all of you!  Grab yourself a big ol' glass of sweet tea and sit and visit with me a spell.  I write over at The Sweet Life of the Reeses.  I'm the only Reese who ever posts on that ol' blog -- the other Reeses choose to be actors and not writers.  Today, I am filling in for Candi while she is on her nice, little, much deserved vacation.  Vacation...I just love that word!  Instantly, pictures of tropical sandy beaches, clear blue water, and cold beverages with little umbrellas enter my mind.  *Sigh*  Those kind of vacations don't really happen much when you have kid, do they?  We just had our first family trip to Disney World, and while we all had a blast, it was not very relaxing -- although I did manage to take a couple of naps by the pool that week.   We are also looking forward to our annual Labor Day weekend beach trip to Myrtle Beach, SC in just a few more weeks. 

I am so glad I found Candi (or did she find me?) in this wonderful little blog world.  We really seem to have a lot in common.   First, we are both back in school after being out for years.  She, of course, is in the nursing field, and I am entering my last year of law school.  While I am very tired of being in school and being away from my children so much and am ready to be finished, I am very nervous about finishing and all that will entail, i.e., finding a new job, paying back tons of student loan debt, etc.  That's why I have been determined to keep working my current full-time job as a legal assistant/paralegal while attending law school at night.  I just don't know how the job search is going to go when I am finished or how long it will take to find a better job.  Despite a constant reminder that I need to trust God to provide for me and my family, I still struggle with not worrying about the future as you can see. 

Second, Candi and I are both devoted wives and moms to two children.  Candi is a bit further along in the adventure with her kids, and she is a wonderful inspiration to me.  I am so nervous about having teenagers!   These are my precious little ones:

Third, Candi and I are both women of faith.  Candi is such an inspiration to me with her wisdom on matters of the heart.  I can really tell that she has a strong faith and trust in the Lord.  Thank you, Candi, for letting me guest post for you today, and I hope you have the best vacation ever!