"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Christmas break...

Christmas is over but I am still basking in the break and the fact that I have no school until January 18th. Sometimes I feel so burnt out, like if I were to just stop going to school tomorrow I would be ok with that...but then I get floated to Med/Surg and I'm like "HELL TO THE NAW!!"
I seriously don't understand how floor nurses, especially Med/Surg floor nurses do it. I just couldn't see myself being a floor nurse for 30 years. There is NO way. Not too long ago I read a statistic that said the majority of new nurses were burning out and changing careers within THREE years of becoming nurses. That's crazy! Three years just barely gives you enough time to be wet behind the ears! But I can believe it. In my hospital alone I have seen almost a complete nurse turnover of the whole hospital. That means that every unit in my hospital has had major turnover, and that's not just older nurses, I'm talking even brand new nurses have left within a year of being hired. What's the problem? Well from what I see there are several things. First and foremost is STAFFING. Staffing is SUCH a huge problem. With no national nurse/patient ratio the nurses are at the mercy of the hospital administration, and you would think with the majority of them being former nurses they would make sure that we were staffed sufficiently but you would be way wrong. At my particular hospital we try to stay 5/1 on Med/Surg, but of course that doesn't always happen, and we all know from experience, the more you accept, the more they expect. Second is help!! Not only do they expect nurses to see more patients, but they expect you to see more patients with less help! I'm sorry but one CNA to 20-30 patients is NOT help. Shoot, that's if you're lucky enough to even have a CNA, and don't even get me started on what they get paid! Talk about a thankless job!! Then there's pay. To say nurses aren't paid enough is a huge understatement, especially at my hospital. I'm sorry but when a new nurse starts out at $18.00 an hour, THAT'S a problem!! I was making $18.00 an hour as an office manager 10 years ago!! I guess after all of that I can see why nurses burn out within 3 years....
So, anyhoo!! December 18th is the start of my 3rd semester, hard to believe that in January I'll only have 1 1/2 years left of school and then I'll be DONESVILLE FOREVER!! I mean a year and a half, that hardly seems possible that it's that close. I seriously can't wait though. Everyone always asks what type of nurse practitioner I want to be. Of course how can I know? That's just like with nursing, I couldn't know until I actually did it. More than likely I'll just take the first job I get and go from there. Hey, it worked with nursing :D
Well, anyhoo, just wanted to stop in & jot a little something down. I'll try to update again when it gets closer to school starting.
Have a Happy New Year!!

Sunday, October 25, 2015

So far so good...

Second semester of graduate school is going along swimmingly. So far no snags. True to what everyone suggested, I am so HAPPY that I chose pharm this semester instead of patho. Everyone in my program that I've talked to has said that patho is a beast, and I just couldn't afford that this semester. Thankfully, I heeded what everyone said and I chose pharm, which has been surprisingly easy. We just recently took our midterm and I only missed three, not too shabby. As I said in my last post, I'm also taking research as well. Another blessing. Everyone said with research it all depended on the teacher, and again, THANKFULLY I got a GREAT teacher! Something else that's different about this semester is the time. Starting my program in the summer I just assumed that every semester would be as jam packed as the summer, but it's not. The regular semesters are nowhere NEAR as packed together as the summer semester. Of course they're trying to jam 4 months into two months so makes sense right?! Honestly, I wish every semester was a short semester. I think I would be ok with the craziness if I knew that it would be for a much shorter period, but whatever. I'll do my time and be done. So far maintaining my straight A's...hopefully that will last, I guess we'll see next semester!

On a work note, I have recently transferred departments. I went from working part time in med/surg and part time in inpatient rehab to now working full time in inpatient rehab and I have to say THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! I give MAD props (I'm so old) to those hard working med/surg nurses but I am DONE! I literally couldn't do one more day of med/surg, and my last day was NO BUENO! It completely sucked and I left there and felt like a 500 lb weight had been lifted off my shoulders! You know you would think that after a year and a half that I would be less and less anxious with my job, but in med/surg I felt like I was just getting more and more anxious. It just seemed like there was a never ending stream of stuff that needed to be done and I was constantly worrying if I had missed something, forgotten something, forgotten to chart something, it was just no good. So, I am happy to report that I am now a Rehab nurse and I am LOVING it!! I walk into the unit every day and feel like I am home. Rehab is like nursing heaven!

Well, that's it for now. I'll try to update again soon.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

First semester DONE!!!

Yep, you heard me right, one semester down, and only 6 more to go! So, there were a few changes that I had to make in order to get all of my semesters in line and in making those changes I went from 8 semesters to 7, which means instead of graduating December 2017, I'll now graduate in August of 2017. I know it's just one semester less, but that's 4 months sooner and that makes me excited.

So on to how this first semester was. First of all, I took two "easy" classes. I had Nursing Theory and Advanced Roles. While I disliked Theory very much, I felt ok about AR. Also, with summer being an abbreviated semester, it took a minute to get used to so many things being due all at once. Since my school is online there are discussion boards that have to be done every week. Usually there were 2-3 topics due each week where we had to post an initial discussion and then respond to at least 2 of the classmates postings. This was fine. The only real pain was that the postings had to be in APA format and we had to have citations for each one. With summer having only 2 months of classes there were a lot of DB posts, papers, and projects all due at the same time, but with my trusty calendar by my side I made it through with flying colors. That's right, straight A's baby! I mean it was only 2 classes I should have made all A's right?

So the next semester starts this Monday and I'm ready for it. I have decided that this semester I'm not going to stress myself out to the max. I can only do what I can do and what I can do is try my best and devote myself to getting the best grades I can. I'm taking Advanced Pharm and Research. Fortunately I've heard that pharm isn't "that" bad and that research all depends on the teacher. I am PRAYING for good teachers for both. I seriously can't afford any bad grades! Speaking of grades. Did you know that a C in graduate school is anything below an 83.5...I mean really?? That seriously scares the crap out of me, but again, I can only do my best.

You may be wondering how I'm liking online classes and I have to admit, I am LOVING it. While it is extremely time consuming and I feel like I am constantly glued to my computer, I still wouldn't trade it for on ground classes. Also, we have developed a FB group that's just for the students in our program and I love the interaction I am able to have with students in the different semesters. We are able to help each other, ask questions and cheer each other on. I'm loving connecting with all these future NP's!

All in all I have to say that I am loving NP school. I can't WAIT for clinicals to start, but alas that's not for another 3 semesters. So until then I'll just keep doing what I'm doing and pray for the best.

Pray for me too!

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

So close....

Summer is here, well I mean not officially, but close enough, and this summer means school is back in full force. Of course by full force I mean part time. In one way I'm looking forward to the fact that I'll only have 2 classes at a time to focus on, which hopefully means I'll make straight A's. On the other hand though, I wish I was able to go full time, like in nursing school, and get it over with! Another 2 1/2 years...sigh. The good thing about this time around though, is how AWESOME clinical is going to be!!! I am soooo looking forward to my clinicals, all dressed up in my white coat and professional name tag! Guess I need to do some shopping before then huh? Going straight from nursing school into nursing, I haven't really had the need to stock up on professional clothing. I went from jeans, sandals and tennis shoes, to scrubs and tennis shoes. And of course there's the ever present bun that I wear, definitely going to need to get my hair did before then! Thankfully I have a year to stock up, because truth be told, I HATE to clothes shop. But, I figure if I can just stock up on the staples (good black pants, black shoes, a couple of nice shirts) then I can get by, right? Ooooh I'm so excited for that!! It's just so unreal to think I'll be in that position in just 2 short years.

School starts back on June 2nd and until then I'm working as much as possible since I plan on cutting back to 3 days a week once school starts, at least until I get my footing. I'm hoping that I can still incorporate a 4 day week every other week, but until I'm sure, I have set my next schedule for three days only. That's going to seriously hurt my wallet. I tried so hard not to get used to my paycheck from working 4 & 5 days, but it's so hard! That extra day every week makes such a huge difference! Have I mentioned how much I love my nursing paycheck? Well, for all you nurslings out there, let me just say, I DO! Money may not be everything, but let me tell you, it sure makes life a lot more enjoyable! Especially going from a broke nursing student.

I have some other stuff NP related to tell you, but that will have to wait until next time.

Have a great rest of the week!

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Just around the corner...

I love spring, spring is absolutely my favorite time of the year. To me spring feels like life, it's so full of promise and hope, of newness and freshness! I'm so happy that I'm starting school in June at a time when the daylight is longer and I can take my books outside and study in the fresh air. Speaking of which, I am so close to being able to register for classes. I have updated all of my information and am only waiting on one more hold to be released and then I can register!  It's getting so close, just right around the corner! Can you feel my excitement?!! If not, it looks a little something like this:

Although on the same hand I am nervous as all get out! (Yes that's a southern expression.) If you read back through my blog you'll see that I'm definitely a nervous Nelly when it comes to school. I get myself all worked up quite often and although I'm not in a frenzy YET, I am still worried about how I'll do this time around. I mean I've only been out of school for a year, so it's not like I don't remember how all of this goes, but just looking at the class names gets me nervous. Advanced this and that, I mean am I really advanced at anything?  I will say that working for this year definitely makes me more comfortable in the knowledge that I've obtained, so I'm hoping PRAYING that I will be advanced enough to understand all of these concepts and do well in graduate school. I guess there's no knowing until it's done, but you know I'll keep you updated.

I guess that's it for now, just checking in! Enjoy this beautiful weather!

Saturday, March 21, 2015


I know I have been MIA for quite a while now, I suppose that's what working 4-5 days a week will do to  you, but I'm back and with good news, I WAS ACCEPTED INTO MY MASTER'S FNP PROGRAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!  Can you tell I'm excited?  Doing the happy dance, doing the happy dance. Ok, to be honest, I've known this for a while, but since I don't actually start school until June, I didn't see any point in rushing to put it on here, but since June is just 3 short months away, and registration for classes start April 3, I figured it was time!! Well, that and I'm working in rehab today so I have a little time to kill :D 

So, the deets. I am going back to the same school that I graduated from with my BSN. This is a RODP (Regent's Online Degree Program) where they assign you to a home school and lucky me I was assigned back at my alma mater, so thrilled! Like I said, I start in June. I am planning on attending part time, which equals 2 classes a semester, because I still need to work full time. I REALLY wish I could go full time because of the difference in the amount of time it would take to finish, but I just can't. I have to work at least 3 days a week and I want to make sure I get good grades, so in order to really focus I think that 2 classes a semester is all I'm going to be able to do. My plan is to work MWF and "go to school" on Tue & Thur. I say go, but really this is an online program and the only time I actually have to go anywhere will be when I start clinicals. My plan though is to take Tue & Thur & go to the library that is 5 minutes from my house and really focus on school. I don't know about everyone else, but I usually get more done in an quiet, studious, environment. I think I'm just a dork like that though.
The other day I had to go up to the school to pay my malpractice insurance and while I was there I had to do a few things to prepare for registration and it was so great being back in a learning environment. I love school. I love knowing that I am moving towards a goal that I set 5 years ago, one that is getting closer every day. My program is for FNP (Family Nurse Practitioner). I don't plan on pursuing the DNP (Doctorate of Nursing Practice). I just honestly don't feel the need for the extra title, schooling, debt, and time. I want to get done ASAP! I want to finish what I started and just be done. Going part time will take me exactly 2 1/2 years, so I will graduate in December 2017 at the ripe old age of 45...hard to believe, but guess what?  I'll be 45 in 2 1/2 years anyway and I'd much rather be a NP at 45 than a floor nurse at 45, right? Floor nursing is NO JOKE. Since graduation I have worked in Geri Psych, Rehab and Med/Surg, and what I've learned from working these different floors is this. Your co-workers make ALL the difference. If you love the people you're working with it makes the day go SO much better, and thankfully I have met some GREAT people.

Anyway, that's what's going on in my neck of the woods. I just thought I'd stop by & mention this because pretty soon my school posts will start showing up again. I know everyone is looking forward to all the angst, lol.

Hope you're all enjoying this beautiful weather, unless of course you live in a part of the world where it's still dead of winter, yuck!

Be back soon!!