"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

So sad...

Ok I know I just posted, but I just read a post by New Nurse in the Hood titled Regret and it just really broke my heart. I know that one day I too will confront this issue, but honestly in all the hustle and bustle of thinking about nursing school and the future, etc. I just really don't think about abuse all that much. This was a bit of a wake up call for me. I can think of a lot of gross stuff that I hope I don't ever encounter, but I'm sure I will, but abuse is something I KNOW I will encounter. I hope and pray that like this fantastic nurse, that I will do all I can while caring for this child, and I hope and pray that this post will stay with me and that it will make me a little more cautious when this sweet baby walks into my room and I'm having those little nagging doubts in my head. I have to say, I think this may be the hardest part about going into this field, the regrets of things that you can't change. Sad....

Totally NOT looking forward to the next 2 weeks...

Ok, so I'm pretty positive I've mentioned before that I HATE getting up early!! Therefore I can tell you right now, I am NOT looking forward to the next two weeks!! I start my CNA class on Monday and I am SOOOOO dreading it. Not because of the CNA part, but because class starts at 7:00 am!!! I mean seriously! I usually don't even get UP until like 7:20! So, needless to say, getting up at 5:50 is going to be BRUTAL. Of course on Monday I'm going to see just how long it takes me to get there & then I'm going to make sure I sleep ALL the say until the last minute before it's time to leave. Isn't that terrible? I can't help it.

On a different note, I finally got my schedule for school!!! Woohoo! I am so excited, although a little irritated that I haven't been able to register yet! Frustrating. And another thing that I'm not TERRIBLY thrilled about is that on Tuesday I have two classes with a BIG gap in between them. This is so annoying. The campus is almost an hour from my house, so it's not like I can just go home & wait on my next class. I'm going to have to lolly gag around campus from 11:15 when I get out of my first class until 3:10, which is when my 2nd class starts. Ugh. Yes I know I can use those 4 hours to study, and I'm sure that's what I'll do. Eat lunch & study. I mean I guess I should be looking at it as 4 UNINTERRUPTED hours to study, and I yes I suppose that is a good thing. But, I would just rather go all the way through and be able to go home early. Leaving at 5:10 in the afternoon means that I'll have to have someone get my child (if my son doesn't get his hardship license, which I'm REALLY hoping he will). But I guess it's only one day & truthfully that's only twice a month that I'd have to get someone to get her, so I guess I shouldn't complain too much now that I look at it like that.

Anyway, here is my schedule:

Permission to Register11513NURS3000Professionalism in Nursing
Permission to Register11514NURS3010Pathophysiology
Permission to Register11517NURS3030Health Assessment
Permission to Register16774NURS3040Health Assessment Lab
Permission to Register11534NURS3370Health and Gerontology

I don't have an elective, but I think I'm going to wait & take that during the summer, that way I can focus on these classes. I figure 4 classes is enough, especially with Patho. I'll just take my elective during the summer. I can swing one class, sitting by the pool :)

Ok, so you already know I'm super excited about starting school, but do you know what else I am totally excited about? SCHOOL SUPPLIES!!! I absolutely LOVE getting new school supplies. I love all the cute notebooks, the pastel colored highlighters, the colored pens, the new backpack, I love it all!! Speaking of which, should I get a rolling backpack? I hate to say it, but those always seem so nerdy to me. What do other nursing students have??

Friday, November 18, 2011

Excitement again!!!

Ok, so today when I went to my provider's office to get my health assessment letter for school, the nurse there asked me what program I was going into. When I told her she said that was the same one she was currently in. Well you know what THAT means, that I had to TOTALLY pick her brain clean of any and all information I could get that I had to ask her a few questions. So a little background. When I took A & P I & II & Microbiology I'll be honest, I never cracked a book. I didn't read anything other than my notes and I only studied about 4-6 hours a week total (even less for A & P II, I really hated that class). So, you can imagine my total terror upon hearing stories about having to read 7 chapters for one test, when I've never even read the first chapter of anything. So of course that was my FIRST question. I told her about my study habits up until now & she just laughed & said the SAME THING! She said she was the same way and that even now (she's in her 4th semester, there are 5 total) she still hasn't read any of the chapters and that yes if I could do that well in A & P I & II & Micro w/o reading the book, that I'd be just fine doing the same once I started at Blarvard. She said she reads her notes and the handouts that the teacher gives and that's what she uses to take her tests on & she does just fine. WHEW that was SUCH a relief to hear!!

Now, before you go getting all uptight, it's not that I'm opposed to reading the material and I TOTALLY will if I feel like I need to, BUT if I don't HAVE to read it to pass the tests, then I'm sorry, I'm just not going to. We're all different & learn in different ways, so don't blow a gasket over this :)

Anyhoo, one more step done. Now all I have left to do is send this health assessment off & set up my CPR class. I left a vm with one of them but I haven't heard back from them, so I guess I need to call again. OH and btw, I got into that CNA class. I can't really say I'm happy or excited about that, but I know that the experience will be good for me and also it will be good to have that skill in case I need to look for a job, which I'm still hoping I won't have to.

Soooooo, getting closer every day.................. Woohoo!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

CNA class....

So I just went for my group interview for the position in the CNA class two towns over from me. So, ok in case I haven't mentioned it before, I HATE getting up early. Absolutely HATE it. I am NOT a morning person. I like to stay up late and get up NO earlier than 7:00 am. So what do I find out today in the interview? Oh that there may be days when I have to be there as early as 6:30. Well guess what? That place is an hour from me, meaning, yep you guessed it. I will have to leave at 5:30 in the morning!! Are you freaking kidding me!! 5:30 in the morning is still considered NIGHT in my book. That's not a decent hour to be up and driving on the streets!! And guess what else that means? It means I'll have to WAKE up at 5:00 am. ARE THEY INSANE!!! I mean seriously, why can't shift change be at a decent hour like 10:00? What's wrong with that? Lord thank you that the class is only 3 1/2 weeks long. Oh my goodness. And before you say it. Yes I know there are probably going to be days like that in nursing school as well, but the difference is, I WANT to be a nurse!! Being a CNA is just a back up plan. :) Wait, that didn't come out right. It's a back up plan in case I actually have to get a job. Otherwise, I probably won't be working as a CNA, as I'm hoping not to have to work while in school. But, we'll see. Anyhoo, I still have to wait to see if I even get into the CNA class anyway. Too bad the scrubs you have to wear there aren't the same color as the scrubs I'll have to wear at Blarvard. Oh well.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Got me an ID!!

So I went to school today to turn in my signature page, my intent page & some other page. Got MY ID!!!!!!!!! Wooohoo! And talked to the financial aid counselor. Turned in my loan signature page and guess what? I'm DONE with turning stuff in to the actual school. Now all I have left to do is get CPR certified, have my health assessment done & get all that turned in to some place called Accusource & I AM GOOD TO GO BABY!! It was weird being at the school today there were so many freaking people there!! It kind of made me a teeny bit nervous. I've never gone to an actual University before. Up until now I've only attended community colleges. I don't know why but it kind of made me feel old. Which of course, I am older than most of those students, but I never felt that way at the community college. It also made me feel fat. Nothing like attending a University full of young, fit 18-23 y/o's to boost the old self esteem!! But, whatever. I am who I am, and although I am a work in progress I can't compare myself to anyone else but me.

I am seriously SO excited about this new chapter in my life. I still can't believe that it's real. It's happening and the way that God put it all together works out far better than I could have planned it. I know that this is the path that I am supposed to be on and I am so thankful to be allowed to walk it. And guess what? I'm glad you're here to walk it with me :)

Monday, November 14, 2011

Step 1...

Ok so tomorrow I am going to get my school ID. I have to go & pick it up so that they can activate it for me. You need it to get into places like the labs I believe and without it the doors won't open. Which is kind of cool, but also makes me wonder why you'd need a locked door with a security pass to get into it? I guess I'll find out. Also, I talked to Financial Aid today & she said that my loan was in place, that all I had to do was to go in and accept the "award". I don't really know why it's called an award when I'm going to be paying that sucker back for the rest of my life next 10 years or so. Shorter if I'm lucky :) But I was just happy to hear that that is in place. So I have to go by there tomorrow too & fill out a paper regarding that. Also, I found out I don't have to meet with an advisor. I just have to keep watching my student email and they will notify me when I am allowed to go and register and then I just go online & do it. So that's not too hard. I'm a teeny bit worried about getting my CPR class in. I need to call around tomorrow & see if I can get into one of the classes that they sent me info about. Also, I got the call today for the interview for the CNA class. I am going to do it, but dangit if it isn't 3 1/2 weeks long, RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of December. I mean I'm already deadlined to death with nursing school, but then on top of that you add a 3 1/2 week class AND Christmas. Holy shamoley!! I have an interview for that this Wed at 9:15 am. She said it's kind of like a job interview. Which I suppose makes sense because I guess if they like you then you could always go work there after you get your CNA license. I set up my doctor's appt for Friday to have my health assessment done and so far so good. I feel like I'm on top of things but I sure hate having a cold on top of all of this. Oh yeah, I have a cold :( I HATE having colds. But hopefully this is the only cold I'll have for the next 2 years :) Wishful thinking? I usually don't get sick, so I need to just go ahead & get this one out of the way.

Ok this post is kind of jumbled, and I am going to bed. Will post after my adventure tomorrow. I'm having a friend drive me to school so that I can just hop in and out of the car and don't have to look for parking place. Thank God for sending me such good friends!!


Original idea? Not!!

Ok so apparently my "big" idea of blogging my way through nursing school/graduate school isn't so original after all. I've come across another great blog by Kendra over here that is basically the same thing I plan on doing. Although I AM planning on adding video's to my blog, as soon as I get my camera :) But anyhoo, if you are interested in a first hand experience through nursing school, head on over to Kendra's blog and check it out. She's one super smart chickie!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

So hard to believe!!

It's so hard to believe that in less than 2 months I will be a full fledged nursing student!!! Even harder to believe is that in 2 short years I will be a nurse. A full on RN. A Bachelor degree holding RN!!!!!!!!! First of all, just having a Bachelor's degree is big in and of itself. As I said before, I will be the first one in my family to hold a Bachelor's degree. My mother talked about going back to school a lot in her 30's, but she just never could make it. She always wanted to be an attorney and Lord that woman always thought she was right, she would have made a great one!! But with 2 kids at home and a full time job, she just couldn't make it happen. It's something I always regretted for her, and definitely a major motivator in my life to spur me to go back to school. When she died with unfulfilled dreams I knew that I didn't want to end up like that, I don't want to be on my death bed full of regrets of what I should have done. I want to take life by the horns and ride this bull kicking and snorting to the very end!!!!!! So thus begins this exciting, terrifying journey. And the beginning is this packet I need to go through. Just looking at all the deadlines and knowing that if I miss even one of them I'm "OUTTA THERE!", totally makes me nervous. I mean I JUST got the packet yesterday & already one of the deadlines to turn in my acceptance letter is just around the corner. I have to fill out my acceptance letter, which is basically just a page I sign saying I accept the position in the program that they're offering me. Also, I have to go to the school & get my student ID so that they can program it so that I can have electronic access to all the labs, etc. Then there's a physical, I have to show proof of my medical insurance, I have to purchase malpractice insurance from the school (thank God it's only $10.15 a year!), and I have to turn all of these things, plus a few more into various different places. Wouldn't it be nice if you could just turn all this stuff into one place? But I know from years of working in medical offices that there's always many major hoops to jump through in order to get what you want. So thankfully I'm used to this. It's just the deadlines that give me a little perspiration under my arm pits.

So right now I have to get online & log into my school account b/c let's be real, FIRST THINGS FIRST, I have to get my financial stuff in order. I will be having to pay for school with student loans for now. Initially I had thought I might get my CNA license & find a hospital to hire me who will pay for my schooling, BUT I just don't know if I want to even go that route. I don't know yet, I'm going to have to pray over this one & see where the Lord is leading me. But, wherever that goes, for now I have to get my student loan in place. I applied for this year (hoping I was going to get accepted for the fall program), but since the spring program starts in January, I am assuming that's a different year. Actually it may still be considered the same "school" year, but still I need to hustle on over to the FAFSA website, just to make sure. If I can't pay for school, I ain't going to school!

So, as you can see, I am TOTALLY excited about this new phase in my life and I plan to blog about it all the way through. I want this to be a comprehensive blog where a future nursing student can come and see all the good, the bad and the ugly about nursing school. I know there are many blogs out there that are by nursing students, but I want this one to be totally about my escapades through nursing school AND BEYOND!! So hang on for the ride and I hope that I'm not dreaming thinking I can keep this up all while

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Today is the beginning of the rest of my life!!! Today I was ACCEPTED into Blarvard's (name changed to protect the innocent) nursing program. Starting in January I will again roam the hallowed halls of college, but this time it will be a University and not a community college. This time I will be working toward my Bachelor's degree. This time I will be working toward changing my family's future. This time I will be working toward a life that includes someone in my family that graduated from college!!!! This time will be the beginning of what I hope is a life changing dream come true. I am SO excited, I GOT IN!!!
Now of course, this is where the nerves kick in. Am I smart enough? Will I be able to pass these classes? Will I be able to afford everything I have to have? Will I be able to balance school, a family and possibly work? I am totally thanking God right now for how this has all fallen into place. Once again I am just praising a Father that knows the road ahead. A Father that only wants the best for me. A Father that sees the future I can't see and that leads me by the hand towards a goal that I have dreamed about now for almost 3 years. Thank you Lord!!

On a side note I had the coolest call just a minute ago. After I got my acceptance letter I posted a picture of it on FB & one of the women I've become FB friends with (who is a NP, going for her DNP) called me!! It was so sweet!! We've talked on FB, emailed etc. She has given me many words of encouragement and I was so touched that she called. Not only did she call but she said if I needed anything...help with a problem, tips on getting through school, even help if money was short to just give her a call. How sweet is that? I definitely know that God "put" her in my life. She even said she would be looking for a graduation invitation. Isn't that just too sweet!!! I am so thankful to have "met" her and can't wait to meet her for real 2 years from now at my graduation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Guess I'm gonna get off here and go make some dinner, but I'll be walking on sunshine all the way there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohooooooo