"Listen to the mustn'ts child, listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me....Anything can happen child. Anything can be." Shel Silverstein
"She believed she could, so she did." R.S. Grey

“What if I Fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson

Saturday, June 30, 2012

After tomorrow only 8 weeks!!

Sheesh, 8 weeks until school starts and guess who has lost NO weight!!!  Yep, me.  I mean seriously, I don't know what I'm thinking.  Those white scrubs are starting to haunt my nightmares!!

If only I looked this good in white scrubs!

I got a letter in the mail today from school saying I had $110.00 in tickets, haha.  Guess I should have stuck with the student parking lot & not the teacher parking lot huh?  Oh well, I wonder if they can just take it out of my student loan money?  Speaking of which, I think I really need to look into some scholarships.  I want to, but that whole process just seems so daunting... Maybe I'll go in & talk to one of the financial aid people & they can point me in the right direction.  I am sweating bullets just thinking about it.  Last semester I went into debt $10,500 & this year it's like $12,500.  I mean by the time I'm done with my BSN I will be in debt $35,000!!!!!!!! I mean and that's from a STATE school!!  Just the thought of that makes me shake in my boots.

You know what I need?  I need a job in a hospital that is willing to pay for my schooling in return for me working for them.  I'm thinking that's a fair trade off.  Does anyone do that currently??  I know there's a hospital in the town over that does that.  I guess I'd work as a CNA there while I was in school & then after I get my RN license I'd have to work there for a while to pay for it.  I think that's a fair trade off, I mean I plan on working as a RN while I get my nurse practitioner's license anyway.  I have been putting off getting my CNA license this summer though b/c it involves taking a 2 week course, but if I wait until the end of this next semester I can just take the test w/o having to take the course.  Of course that means I can't work in the hospital until then.  Hmm, what do you think I should do??  Go ahead & take the CNA test & get a job?  I mean I could definitely use the money, this measly $220.00 a week I get from unemployment doesn't really offer me much "fun" money, BUT it allows me to spend the whole summer with my babies (yes I know they're not babies any more, but they'll always be babies in my heart).  Of course I wouldn't HAVE to go to work yet, I could wait until August 1st when they go back to school.  I mean I don't go back until August 27th.  That would give me a few weeks to work until I started school & then I'm sure they will work around my school schedule right??  I know you don't know.  I guess I just need to go & talk to someone there huh? Yeah, I know you're right.

On another note, guess who has been studying their patho & assessment over the summer??? You got THAT right, NOT me!! (Gotcha didn't I?)  I swear I've pulled out my book like three times & then thought "I really need to clean this kitchen table off" & put the book back down & the kitchen table STILL didn't get cleaned off, hahaha!
Not my kitchen table, but VERY close!

It does worry me a bit though.  I mean seriously, after one semester I still feel like a complete I-D-I-O-T when it comes to knowing the body systems & how they work etc.  Which is another reason working in the hospital will probably help me.  But I digress.

I guess as you can tell this post isn't really much more than a bunch of rambling thoughts, but that's how I am.  I start with one thought & that thought leads to another & by the time I'm done I'm wondering if Flamingo's are an endangered species!!

Haha, I guess I'm done for now.  Hope everyone else is having a great summer & for those lucky ducks whose program runs through summer, hope you're studying your buttumpskies off!



  1. White scrubs?? We have to wear dark blue..thank God! I'd die if I had to wear white and I feel you on the debt!! Keep on movin'!!

    1. I know, it's hideous!! I mean our school colors are navy, I don't know why we can't wear that color!! Ugh :(

  2. I think some hospitals do tuition reimbursements based on summer preceptorship. You should definately look into it

    I know I haven't lost a stinking pound either :-P Good luck for the both of us in the next weeks! :)

    1. Thanks! Yes, I am definitely going to talk to the people in the hospital in our next town over & see what the deal is. Good luck on your weight as well.