Did I REALLY sign up for this??

Ok so I've calmed down a bit after my blow up in Assessment class on Monday.  Today I started working on my professional portfolio.  It's due next week.  But it doesn't seem to be very hard & I don't really have too much to put in there anyway, so I'm pretty sure I'll get it done by Friday.  Then I have one more project I have to finish & one more paper to write.  I hate papers and mostly b/c I don't know what APA style is and I haven't bought the book yet (yes I know I'm a dork), so writing them just puts me in a funk.  I mean seriously, what's wrong with good 'ol MLA style!!  And citing, ugh, don't even get me started.  No the reference page, it's the biggest pain in my booty!!  But all in all I can see the finish line and I THIIIIIIIIIIINK I'm going to make it and boy am I going to CELEBRATE!!!  I think every semester I'm going to have to celebrate just making it through one more semester, lol.  I am praying tha...

So today was my 4 th Assessment test and I can't even begin to tell you how discouraged I am. As I have probably said before, I'm not doing so hot in this class and NOT because it is a hard class by any means, but I think it's b/c I'm assuming it's so easy & therefore I'm not giving it the time it deserves when it comes to studying. Today's test was the easiest test we've had in that class, over the easiest material and yet it was the WORST grade I have made in there!!! I was so upset that I left class as soon as the test was over, I couldn't even stay for lecture. I mean I am just so upset about this. I am a straight A student normally & while I can handle a B, I am so upset with my grade in this class. And really I'm not upset b/c I am getting a C as much as I am upset that it is putting me so close to getting kicked out of the program. And yes we are allowed to retake one course, but I don't want to have to do that!!! Ugh, so frus...

Ok am I the only one who starts getting off track at the end of the semester? I don't remember doing this in my other semesters & maybe I've just gotten sidetracked b/c my children have been out of school for two weeks, but dang if I don't feel like I've been derailed. Last night I had an online test due & also a lab paper & darn it if I didn't forget to turn in my lab!! Now we are only allowed to turn in our labs three times before we fail the class & the first time I knew I was going to turn it in late (that was they day of my paper disaster & I just couldn't face it), but last night I just totally blanked on it & didn't turn it in!!! Of course I left school early the other day & then totally ditched my class on Wednesday, so I think I just got a little off course b/c of all of this. BUT guess what I got on my TERRIBLE paper? An 89!!! Can you believe that?!! She must have been REALLY lenient on that grading scale, but hey, I...

I can hardly believe that I am half way through my first semester of nursing school. I don't think it will be real until this semester is over & I've actually passed everything. It's weird b/c even though I'm doing good, I still worry that I can just screw it all up at any second. Like failure is just a test away. I guess that's just the way it is in nursing school, constant self doubt. But, one thing I feel MUCH better about is the head to toe assessment. I started practicing on Alei (which she loves) and so far we're down to lungs & I can get from head to lungs in 6 minutes. We only have 20-25 minutes to complete the whole thing. I was nervous at first about remembering everything, but I think if I just continue to practice it every night on Al that it will be like 2nd nature when I do it in front of the professors. Another good thing is, my friend that's a semester ahead of me is going to meet w/me & my partner tomorrow & watch us do the a...

So remember I said I had a paper due. Well let me just tell you what I did with that paper. So, I wrote the paper initially & let it sit until the day it was due. That day I had the paper due & a HUGE assessment due. But, since I had already written the paper, I figured I'd just clean it up, put in my references & turn it in, no biggie. Then I'd have plenty of time to get my lab done & turned in. So I got out of class at 12:00, get something to eat & start the paper at 12:30. So, I basically rewrote the paper & got done with it around 3:30 or so, went to do something to it and DELETED the WHOLE thing!! Now, at this point I know you're saying "Why didn't you save it as you went?" Well, normally I do that, but I wasn't on my computer, I was on the computer at school & I just didn't. So that was THREE hours of work down the drain. Now mind you both the paper AND the lab had to be due by 11:59 that night and I KNEW the lab was g...