Did I REALLY sign up for this??

Ok I know I just posted, but I just read a post by New Nurse in the Hood titled Regret and it just really broke my heart. I know that one day I too will confront this issue, but honestly in all the hustle and bustle of thinking about nursing school and the future, etc. I just really don't think about abuse all that much. This was a bit of a wake up call for me. I can think of a lot of gross stuff that I hope I don't ever encounter, but I'm sure I will, but abuse is something I KNOW I will encounter. I hope and pray that like this fantastic nurse, that I will do all I can while caring for this child, and I hope and pray that this post will stay with me and that it will make me a little more cautious when this sweet baby walks into my room and I'm having those little nagging doubts in my head. I have to say, I think this may be the hardest part about going into this field, the regrets of things that you can't change. Sad....

Ok, so I'm pretty positive I've mentioned before that I HATE getting up early!! Therefore I can tell you right now, I am NOT looking forward to the next two weeks!! I start my CNA class on Monday and I am SOOOOO dreading it. Not because of the CNA part, but because class starts at 7:00 am!!! I mean seriously! I usually don't even get UP until like 7:20! So, needless to say, getting up at 5:50 is going to be BRUTAL. Of course on Monday I'm going to see just how long it takes me to get there & then I'm going to make sure I sleep ALL the say until the last minute before it's time to leave. Isn't that terrible? I can't help it. On a different note, I finally got my schedule for school!!! Woohoo! I am so excited, although a little irritated that I haven't been able to register yet! Frustrating. And another thing that I'm not TERRIBLY thrilled about is that on Tuesday I have two classes with a BIG gap in between them. This is so annoyi...

Ok, so today when I went to my provider's office to get my health assessment letter for school, the nurse there asked me what program I was going into. When I told her she said that was the same one she was currently in. Well you know what THAT means, that I had to TOTALLY pick her brain clean of any and all information I could get that I had to ask her a few questions. So a little background. When I took A & P I & II & Microbiology I'll be honest, I never cracked a book. I didn't read anything other than my notes and I only studied about 4-6 hours a week total (even less for A & P II, I really hated that class). So, you can imagine my total terror upon hearing stories about having to read 7 chapters for one test, when I've never even read the first chapter of anything. So of course that was my FIRST question. I told her about my study habits up until now & she just laughed & said the SAME THING! She said she was the same way and that even now (s...

So I just went for my group interview for the position in the CNA class two towns over from me. So, ok in case I haven't mentioned it before, I HATE getting up early. Absolutely HATE it. I am NOT a morning person. I like to stay up late and get up NO earlier than 7:00 am. So what do I find out today in the interview? Oh that there may be days when I have to be there as early as 6:30. Well guess what? That place is an hour from me, meaning, yep you guessed it. I will have to leave at 5:30 in the morning!! Are you freaking kidding me!! 5:30 in the morning is still considered NIGHT in my book. That's not a decent hour to be up and driving on the streets!! And guess what else that means? It means I'll have to WAKE up at 5:00 am. ARE THEY INSANE!!! I mean seriously, why can't shift change be at a decent hour like 10:00? What's wrong with that? Lord thank you that the class is only 3 1/2 weeks long. Oh my goodness. And before you say it. Yes I know there are probably goin...

So I went to school today to turn in my signature page, my intent page & some other page. Got MY ID!!!!!!!!! Wooohoo! And talked to the financial aid counselor. Turned in my loan signature page and guess what? I'm DONE with turning stuff in to the actual school. Now all I have left to do is get CPR certified, have my health assessment done & get all that turned in to some place called Accusource & I AM GOOD TO GO BABY!! It was weird being at the school today there were so many freaking people there!! It kind of made me a teeny bit nervous. I've never gone to an actual University before. Up until now I've only attended community colleges. I don't know why but it kind of made me feel old. Which of course, I am older than most of those students, but I never felt that way at the community college. It also made me feel fat. Nothing like attending a University full of young, fit 18-23 y/o's to boost the old self esteem!! But, whatever. I am wh...

Ok so tomorrow I am going to get my school ID. I have to go & pick it up so that they can activate it for me. You need it to get into places like the labs I believe and without it the doors won't open. Which is kind of cool, but also makes me wonder why you'd need a locked door with a security pass to get into it? I guess I'll find out. Also, I talked to Financial Aid today & she said that my loan was in place, that all I had to do was to go in and accept the "award". I don't really know why it's called an award when I'm going to be paying that sucker back for the rest of my life next 10 years or so. Shorter if I'm lucky :) But I was just happy to hear that that is in place. So I have to go by there tomorrow too & fill out a paper regarding that. Also, I found out I don't have to meet with an advisor. I just have to keep watching my student email and they will notify me when I am allowed to go and register and then I jus...

Ok so apparently my "big" idea of blogging my way through nursing school/graduate school isn't so original after all. I've come across another great blog by Kendra over here that is basically the same thing I plan on doing. Although I AM planning on adding video's to my blog, as soon as I get my camera :) But anyhoo , if you are interested in a first hand experience through nursing school, head on over to Kendra's blog and check it out. She's one super smart chickie !

It's so hard to believe that in less than 2 months I will be a full fledged nursing student!!! Even harder to believe is that in 2 short years I will be a nurse. A full on RN. A Bachelor degree holding RN!!!!!!!!! First of all, just having a Bachelor's degree is big in and of itself. As I said before, I will be the first one in my family to hold a Bachelor's degree. My mother talked about going back to school a lot in her 30's, but she just never could make it. She always wanted to be an attorney and Lord that woman always thought she was right, she would have made a great one!! But with 2 kids at home and a full time job, she just couldn't make it happen. It's something I always regretted for her, and definitely a major motivator in my life to spur me to go back to school. When she died with unfulfilled dreams I knew that I didn't want to end up like that, I don't want to be on my death bed full of regrets of what I should have done. I want to take lif...

Today is the beginning of the rest of my life!!! Today I was ACCEPTED into Blarvard's (name changed to protect the innocent) nursing program. Starting in January I will again roam the hallowed halls of college, but this time it will be a University and not a community college. This time I will be working toward my Bachelor's degree. This time I will be working toward changing my family's future. This time I will be working toward a life that includes someone in my family that graduated from college!!!! This time will be the beginning of what I hope is a life changing dream come true. I am SO excited, I GOT IN!!! Now of course, this is where the nerves kick in. Am I smart enough? Will I be able to pass these classes? Will I be able to afford everything I have to have? Will I be able to balance school, a family and possibly work? I am totally thanking God right now for how this has all fallen into place. Once again I am just praising a Father that knows the road ahead. A Fa...